How many people have you told you plan to CTB

[ddn.ctb]

I have told two people.

I was quite surprised that they were relatively supportive of the idea.

 

[Gonnerr]

One , i offered him all my money if he can get me Nembutal.

 

[SmollMushroom]

Nobody. But I feel like it's what everyone around me expect me to do at this point.
Also, I guess my therapist knows my intentions.

 

[dumbgirlonline]

I've told my friend of 6 years. He just downplays it but I wish he'd say… something …

 

[Gonnerr]

I told him i cannot go past 50 , im 43 , i must do it before , illness and loneliness is not a way to go for me. He understand.

Better burn fast than fade away , i will use some of my money to do extreme sports and hopefully die accidentally.

 

[EternalShore]

I told my parents when I was doing terrible during summer job! >_< Bad idea! :( Hopefully, they forgot???
Anyways, other than that, I joke about it some irl [I'm happy when they aren't horrified :)], browse SaSu during class, and post about it on Twitter, soooo... a lot

 

[wastingtime]

i haven't straight up told anyone but showed some hints that i am interested, if that makes sense. a lot of my friends know about my ideation in that way but i dont think they took it too seriously from their reactions

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm never able to understand why anyone would risk doing that in this anti-suicide society. And if I had a reliable plan to cease existing on my own terms it wouldn't be anybody else's business anyway, I just wish to peacefully die far away from other people and be forgotten about.

 

[HollowDrop]

I've mentioned it to some friends and my psychiatrist. I have one friend who understands me and it's nice to at least have one person who doesn't freak out about the subject. Well my psychiatrist doesn't really freak out either, rather she starts discussion to help me find the root of my problems which does help for a short time after every meeting.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

I lie and never tell anyone I plan to CTB, because it never gets you anywhere. You will suffer for telling others you want to CTB.

 

[mind_split]

2

… recently to my psych & best and longest friend.

they both know me for a very long time.

somehow they understand my desire to ctb… and why Im serious about it just now. Im 32y/o. I dont want to do this whole shit for another 32yrs.

 

[filthystray]

I told my father that I fully intend to go through with it and... He basically did nothing including be a sympathetic ear.... So that was nice

 

[Death is my goal]

irl? no one

 

[thedarkgod11]

I told my ex as she was the only person i talked to and she made me feel like a monster and was informing other people so ive kept everything to myself since

 

[Liminal1]

Noone but you fine people. I tried talking about it irl. Not making that mistake again!

 

[UtopianSoliloquies]

I've told a few people, but I'm so incapable of taking myself seriously that I'm always laughing and smiling when I do it, so I think they think it's just some kind of macabre joke.

 

[Is0lated]

I have told two people.

I was quite surprised that they were relatively supportive of the idea.

None

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Nobody.

 

[Hevn]

I'm not hiding it. Neither IRL, nor on the internet.

 

[Arcitect]

I've told three. Actually, more like reached out to three for help. Two abandoned me, one asked me to stop talking about it after she developed a heart condition and can't deal with stress anymore, all three told me to "get professional help" but that's the last thing I want. I only ever talked about my mental health with people I trusted.

Noone but you fine people. I tried talking about it irl. Not making that mistake again!

Yeah, when I discovered SaSu I was surprised at how supporting the community is. I feel like the people here care, like it's a small town where everyone knows everyone. That's the vibe it gives off anyways.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I'm not shy about it at all. I tell my family all the time. I have autism and it's a known fact that CTBing is one of the leading causes of death for autistic people. Why should I be ashamed of or in denial of the facts? I didn't choose to get born from a stressed pregnancy that fucked me up. My parents chose to recklessly procreate and my siblings have left me to take care of them now that they're old. I get great pleasure in them knowing that they could get an epic jump scare any day now, upon he announcement of my death.

 

[Boudika]

Two. Actually to one, but he told the other person. In general, they are both very pro life and took it very badly (Fortunately, they did not call anywhere, but they began to be very hysterical)

 

[Iris Blue]

In the past my psychiatrist, therapist, my dad and my best friend. It's become the norm for them so I don't think they worry too much anymore. Wonder if me acting like everything's great for my last few months will catch their attention. Anyhow, now I keep it to myself so I don't risk being stopped or put in a mental facility.

 

[NeedAnEscape]

Nobody. It's too much of a risk to talk about it, outside of this forum.

 

[Betelgeuse8000]

Outside of here, nobody has a clue of the schemes and machinations I'm up to. I present myself relatively well, so nobody will even consider the idea until its too late.

 

[steppingoff]

Two people - one with whom I have become friends here, and another friend who I know who has attempted. She was the one that was most surprised that I am going down that road

 

[divinemistress87]

Just my mom but she doesn't believe me

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

2 ppl. I mentioned having suicidal thoughts to one friend.
The other person thinks I am just bluffing

 

[hurting]

The only person I ever told was a medical professional and it was the worst thing I could have done for help.