How many people around you know that you have SS and what it is? What was/is there reaction?

[Sadness20]

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[its-about-time]

My therapist only. We've talked about how it's supportive and helpful in some ways and triggering in others. She's accepting of it. I haven't told her the name of the site, just what it's about. I'm not sure if she knows the site specifically.

 

[deadliftEnjoyer]

My mother and a friend are aware. They worry and spend a lot of energy to convince me (with words) that life is worth it

The rest of the family sees that I am getting worse every day and worry as well, but they don't know of my intentions yet

It makes me feel very guilty. First, because I at least have a family that cares and a lot of people here don't even have that. Secondly, because once I ctb, they may feel like shit and ask themselves what else could they have done to help me :/

My coworkers have no idea and I'd like to keep it that way

 

[Shivali]

One person. Complete incom prehension .

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that it's a terrible idea to tell non suicidal people about this, and about being suicidal in general. It could just make things worse as after all, so many people don't accept suicide as being a rational solution to end suffering, and others could potentially interfere with suicide plans.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Only one friend- because they are suicidal also and I thought it might help them- not to do it- I think they are making more of a 'go' at life than me. More to just talk about stuff and rant- they rant a lot... They said they didn't trust online forums like this. Fair to an extent- I'm sure they do attract the odd predator.

 

[its-about-time]

It makes me feel very guilty. First, because I at least have a family that cares and a lot of people here don't even have that. Secondly, because once I ctb, they may feel like shit and ask themselves what else could they have done to help me :/

I share your situation and guilt. It really complicates the decision. I have spent this year sharing less and less of my struggle. It's strange because everyone comments now on how well I'm doing. It's weird to hear them say that. They don't know. But I imagine they will feel very guilty if I die, "missed the signs" kind of thing, and that makes me very sad for them. No note can explain away their guilt for them.

 

[jodes2]

Both my dad and my gf know. My gf isn't all that happy about it but she accepts it

 

[TheCyberian]

My best friend has some idea (I told her I'm on a support forum for suicidal people and about goodbye threads), but I didn't tell her the exact name because I'd prefer if she didn't find this place. She seemed upset but supportive overall. Afterwards she asked if I could throw away my SN for her sake and I lied and said I did. I still feel bad about it. We both are each others' only friend so the idea of losing me is probably a lot for her

 

[LaVieEnRose]

No one wants to entertain talk of suicide so they can't complain that you turn to this.

 

[Jadzia]

One friend and she was the person that told me about it

 

[willitpass]

me myself and i. people at work know i'm suicidal and that's probably too much, them finding out i hang out on a suicide forum would be a recipe for a psych ward

 

[almaranthine]

I've never told anyone irl that I'm on this site. I vaguely mentioned the theme of this site to my abusive ex when he was drunk once, knowing he wouldn't remember a thing I said.

 

[makethepainstop]

Sorry but as I have seen people committed just for speaking their mind to family and friends, I'll continue to go with the X-files............"Trust no one!"

 

[BillyBob]

Told no one of the site because I do not want any drama about it. Have some friends who wouldn't care to much about it though but do not need to know about it.
Would make me feel weird to know that they maybe reading what I say on here to which would make things kind of awkward if they find out the username.

 

[looseye]

Wait, y'all have friends?

 

[Treeline589]

Just my therapist. She doesn't support it but that's on her

 

[HumansAreHell]

Not which site specifically and just my gf although she didn't take it too well. But then again I can't talk to anyone about being suicidal anyways so that was my mistake on opening up. You'd think one day I'd learn, maybe.

 

[TimetoGo!]

I believe that it's a terrible idea to tell non suicidal people about this, and about being suicidal in general. It could just make things worse as after all, so many people don't accept suicide as being a rational solution to end suffering, and others could potentially interfere with suicide plans.

you are absolutely correct

 

[aladdin]

I didn't know SS myself till like 2 weeks ago, so I doubt anyone around me would know what it is.

 

[hiddenbpd]

My therapist knows the concept of it and that I found my method on it. Obviously didn't tell him the name.
Beyond him, a couple online friends know, they're not happy but it is what it is. They're stepping back from my life anyway.

 

[SectOfValtiel]

isnt really anyone to tell
nobody in my life that even knows Im suicidal lmao

 

[HerculePoirot]

Absolutely nobody. It's my deepest secret.

 

[lili]

My ex and a friend knows about it. I've talked to my therapist about it and he's familiar with it. He just asks me if it's helpful. He hasn't really been against it particularly.

I did meet someone who after going out for drinks a few times I stupidly told him I was a member of this site and he said the knows which website I'm talking about and he comes here too. We both live in a city, he told me that there might be a lot more people I know whoeve come here before than I realize.

 

[makethepainstop]

I didn't know SS myself till like 2 weeks ago, so I doubt anyone around me would know what it is.

Unfortunately they can google any subject, and find out. Now why should I compromise myself, and have my carefully laid plans interrupted or interfered with? So someone else can feel good about saving me? I think NOT! X-FILES 101, "Trust no one!"

 

[BipolarExpress]

I'm not breathing a word of it to my therapist, my psychiatrist, or my friends. I just worry I'd end up on a psych ward because of it. Not again, please!

 

[DeadManLiving]

NOBODY

I wouldn't want to bring any liability or undue attention to this forum after I CBT. Worst thing that could happen is another New York times headline "Online Suicide Forum Under Fire" ... family found son died by suicide ... phone's last browser page linked to a controversial online pro-suicide community.

That would be bad. Please, if / before you CBT, don't forget to clear porn stash and browsing history and don't make any references to this oasis.

The less scrutiny and potential liability, the better!

 

[Side-By-Side]

Unfortunately, my SO. I'm living with my SO so it's kinda difficult to get on this website without him knowing what I'm up to...He found out about this site because I was lurking on it and he suddenly walked in on me while I was on here. Tried to close my tabs but it was too late. I am a horrible liar so I told him the truth.

It's horrible...I wish I had been more careful with using this site...I wish he didn't know about this site because he feels like there is nothing he can do to help me. I feel guilty because I wish didn't have to burden him this.

 

[TAW122]

To this day, nobody in my life (not that there are many outside of family and even then I don't talk to people much) knows of me being on this site. I would prefer secrecy and privacy because like @FuneralCry said, it can be detrimental as most people don't accept suicide as a rational choice, and worst case, people intervening against my wishes and forcing me to live a life I don't wish to live. It's very challenging for one to find the courage to overcome SI (survival instinct), find a reliable method, execute said method successfully (again overriding and overcoming SI), and more, all while doing everything secretly (which would not be necessary if there wasn't a huge stigma on suicide and the consequences of failing - being locked up against one's will, billed for services that one did not ask/wish for, and having a record in one's background check that affects their opportunities and rights).

 

[EnlightenedDeath]

No one that I know personally knows anything about SS nor my plans which is great. I do not want anyone to suddenly act like they care when its obvious they do not.

I have been on the site at work and a customer happened to see that I was on SS. They knew it by the layout and colors since I have the logo turned off. They just looked at me, smiled, and stated how great of a site it was. I acknowledged that is was great and then they left wishing me the best on whatever plans I have into which I did the same. For a split moment, I felt so great knowing that I interacted with someone that I would assume, understands the mind set. Too bad I will probably never see nor hear from them again.