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IWantToSleep

Experienced
Dec 27, 2020
227
Whether by confiscation, you throwing them away yourself, whatever. I'm just asking because I'm anxious about maybe throwing away my ctb materials when I feel panicked, maybe never getting a second chance to get them again, etc.
 
OhBother

OhBother

new day new suffering
Mar 21, 2021
19
If it's definitely hard to obtain the second time I would fight the urge of throwing it out. If you're not ready I would keep it out of sight until you decide. Hard to know sometimes.
 
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LansJ70

Student
May 3, 2021
193
I got SN and then when I was feeling better (I go up and down in feelings, like I guess lots of us) I started throwing it down the sink. Then I thought hang on, what if I change my mind again, I don't want to order it again and have to go through the anxiety of will it get through customs. So I stopped and now have about 55gms of SN instead of 100 gms.
 
OhBother

OhBother

new day new suffering
Mar 21, 2021
19
That sink is sure lucky. I would of paid double just for the 45.
 
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LansJ70

Student
May 3, 2021
193
Wow N - you're going for the gold standard then. I don't think I would dare try and import it, I had enough sleepless nights with SN.
 
suicidesheep31

suicidesheep31

Specialist
Jun 27, 2020
348
I don't keep my SN at home to make sure that this decision is not an impulse.
I had medication that I did throw down in the toilets because my therapist asked for it... my bad
 
sadbadpsychogirl

sadbadpsychogirl

sonofabitch
May 29, 2020
725
ugh i live with my mother and i just found out she took the scalpels that i was going to cut my throat with... there goes that plan..
 

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