Discussion How many different meds have you tried before giving up?

[Intelligent_Panic99]

Several antidepressants (3?), some at high doses which didn't work. Currently on Latuda, lamotragine, lithium and sometimes remeron I still want to kill myself so they work great I guess. I have literally the best psychiatrist (highest rated) in my city and she doesn't want to change the current cocktail because one time, for one day I was happy. (But doc, I have bipolar, remember?)

So I am kind of stuck. All the other good therapists are at her practice and changing wouldn't be straightforward as I would probably have to wait months for another one to become available, I probably wouldn't get to choose, and there are some that suck.

I basically got very very lucky to get in with her after my NP (who is extremely well regarded in our city, but wasn't feeling comfortable treating me as she was working part time at the time) talked her in to it. She isn't private practice (she works through our hospital) so I guess that means she has better liability insurance and can take the "sicker" patients. No therapist will get near me unless they are too inexperienced to know better and/or they just ignore my suicidality.

Anyway, I stopped seeing my psychiatrist. She called me once to see why I wasn't on her schedule. Told me she would call back to see what was happening, and didn't. There is literally no way for me to get ahold of her and she knows it. But, I still have several refills that should last me until I ctb. Coming off is way too uncomfortable and may cause me to act impulsively.

 

[alexlondon365]

do meds and therapy even make a difference? for me the problem is that the underlying issue will be there for the rest of my life, and no amount of meds or therapy will change that.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Three. They reduced my inhibitions (combine this with autism, social isolation, internet, etc) and made me feel like doing stuff more, which resulted in complete catastrophe.