Mkeblair
Member
- Aug 12, 2024
- 7
Hey Everyone!
I used to be VERY active on Ashspace, back in the day. I am so happy to see that a similar platform still exists today (Minus the Chat).
My question is, how many people do you all assume have actually followed through, after posting here? Even back then, you'd see the posts/chats of individuals who were "DONE", however, they would then be back on a day or two later. I am just curious, how many individuals just need someone to talk to, as opposed to those that have legit made up their mind 100%.
I support these individuals either way, and am literally in the same boat, as an American with a bunch of guns and occasionally ready to go, however, I think it's always great for them to hear a voice of reason, maybe? I'm 100% NOT trying to convince anyone otherwise, simply saying "Have you really thought about it before you take that final step that you cannot come back from?".
Please do not take this as me trying to dissuade any individual from doing what they plan on doing, as I honestly support an individuals choice. I am just in that somewhat "Grey Area" myself and on the one hand, I genuinely want to just be done and CTB, while on the other hand, I wonder if things could potentially get better, or if I am being hasty.
I am 40, with my MBA, and recently had a $100k+ career, lost due to lay-off's, along with most likely my severe alcohol addiction. I have been somewhat in this "Mindset" (Asher) for probably 20-30+ years. I'm not 100% sure why. I am now living with my ex-wife, in MY house, as a roommate, unemployed, with her paying all of the bills and providing for me.
I have never really considered anything other than a bullet (as opposed to other methods), while I have (3) handguns, a 12 ga, and an AR-15 sitting within 6 feet of me right now (ya know, as a good ol' American LOL).
I just don't know if I have the "Balls", while I feel that it is what I really want, just a long sleep...
I honestly am not sure what to do, however, just being on here with the rest of you genuinely helps... Sincerely...
I used to be VERY active on Ashspace, back in the day. I am so happy to see that a similar platform still exists today (Minus the Chat).
My question is, how many people do you all assume have actually followed through, after posting here? Even back then, you'd see the posts/chats of individuals who were "DONE", however, they would then be back on a day or two later. I am just curious, how many individuals just need someone to talk to, as opposed to those that have legit made up their mind 100%.
I support these individuals either way, and am literally in the same boat, as an American with a bunch of guns and occasionally ready to go, however, I think it's always great for them to hear a voice of reason, maybe? I'm 100% NOT trying to convince anyone otherwise, simply saying "Have you really thought about it before you take that final step that you cannot come back from?".
Please do not take this as me trying to dissuade any individual from doing what they plan on doing, as I honestly support an individuals choice. I am just in that somewhat "Grey Area" myself and on the one hand, I genuinely want to just be done and CTB, while on the other hand, I wonder if things could potentially get better, or if I am being hasty.
I am 40, with my MBA, and recently had a $100k+ career, lost due to lay-off's, along with most likely my severe alcohol addiction. I have been somewhat in this "Mindset" (Asher) for probably 20-30+ years. I'm not 100% sure why. I am now living with my ex-wife, in MY house, as a roommate, unemployed, with her paying all of the bills and providing for me.
I have never really considered anything other than a bullet (as opposed to other methods), while I have (3) handguns, a 12 ga, and an AR-15 sitting within 6 feet of me right now (ya know, as a good ol' American LOL).
I just don't know if I have the "Balls", while I feel that it is what I really want, just a long sleep...
I honestly am not sure what to do, however, just being on here with the rest of you genuinely helps... Sincerely...
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