How is school or work possible?

[PuppyCatTeeth]

I missed almost every class this semester and had all As until a couple of days ago when I decided not to turn in a lot of work. I don't care about school at all and If I were forced to get a job id get fired from missing work. How are you supposed to do it when you don't care?

After my grade dropped this much I feel even less motivated. My professor even sent an email to me calling me out for missing class.

 

[whotookmylexapro]

I dont know at this point

I had a tiny glimmer of hope that maybe i can push through and still live life normally, but im at my wits end.
I was working full time and also going to class. I had to quit my job because it was too much, now i dont know what to do about school, I can't even go through the motions anymore. I don't want to, living is suffering.

 

[tinyboxer]

I did school because I was afraid of my dad. I do work because I'm afraid of being homeless. Pro tip: find something you're scared of. Sounds sarcastic but if you can't find a positive reason do it because u don't want the negative consequences

 

[PuppyCatTeeth]

I dont know at this point

I had a tiny glimmer of hope that maybe i can push through and still live life normally, but im at my wits end.
I was working full time and also going to class. I had to quit my job because it was too much, now i dont know what to do about school, I can't even go through the motions anymore. I don't want to, living is suffering.

Working full time and going to school with mental illness sounds so insanely difficult. I'm jealous of people that are normal.

I did school because I was afraid of my dad. I do work because I'm afraid of being homeless. Pro tip: find something you're scared of. Sounds sarcastic but if you can't find a positive reason do it because u don't want the negative consequences

My dad is abusive and regularly threatens to kick me out if I don't get a job and do good in school. I should be scared of what will happen but im very apathetic.

 

[Mika Lee]

I missed almost every class this semester and had all As until a couple of days ago when I decided not to turn in a lot of work. I don't care about school at all and If I were forced to get a job id get fired from missing work. How are you supposed to do it when you don't care?

After my grade dropped this much I feel even less motivated. My professor even sent an email to me calling me out for missing class.

Previously, i liked to drown myself in work and studies to not think about ctb so i did fairly well, i won't say well but i got a satisfactory grade but recently, i've been so demotivated and just nonchalant about all of it that i don't study. i've lost focus and can't even concentrate for 15 minutes so i get you now and that's because i have no interest whatsoever and even when i have interest i think that i'm gonna ctb anyways so what's even the point?

 

[PuppyCatTeeth]

Previously, i liked to drown myself in work and studies to not think about ctb so i did fairly well, i won't say well but i got a satisfactory grade but recently, i've been so demotivated and just nonchalant about all of it that i don't study. i've lost focus and can't even concentrate for 15 minutes so i get you now and that's because i have no interest whatsoever and even when i have interest i think that i'm gonna ctb anyways so what's even the point?

What year are you in school? I'm a sophomore. I also struggle to find a reason to continue school when I plan to ctb. What made you want to do school.

 

[Mika Lee]

What year are you in school? I'm a sophomore. I also struggle to find a reason to continue school when I plan to ctb. What made you want to do school.

Last year, well i just wanted to good in my exams because my parents were payin a lot of money for it and i feel guilty about it

 

[Zanmato]

How are you supposed to do it when you don't care?

I remember I hated high school so much, especially one year.
Of course, I was forced to go there.
When I was sick, and I could stay at home, I felt so relieved.

The day I finished school was one of my favorite day ever, then I became a full Hikikomori/Neet.
I didn't care about anything.

Now, I have a job that...
I don't know, I had worst, but, same as for high school, I'm forced to go, of course.
There are days that I'm not in the mood, not at all.
But, you know.
Life sucks.

 

[LastLoveSong]

yeah i dont understand how anyone physically does it i cant even sit in my house without panicking

if im gonna keep putting off offing myself tho then i literally have to get a job, cant wait to quit first day i guess

 

[mellowdependency]

It's so difficult especially when you feel like it's all useless. I'm planning to CTB, but I still have to do assignments and stuff to appear normal

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I relate so much. I'm so behind on university work because I don't have any motivation to do any of it. Honestly, I never even wanted to do any part of life to begin with as it was all imposed on me. I never once enjoyed going through school or university but i relied on my intelligence to carry me through. I can't do that anymore though since it's gotten to the point where I need to do hard work but I don't want to do hard work since I never wanted to live to begin with. I just don't know what to do. I don't care about any of this crap but I'm also too terrified to kill myself due to SI. In the end though, I may have to resort to killing myself since I'm definitely not getting anywhere in life

 

[Unspoken7612]

You are ill. I don't know who you should speak to, but at the very least you should speak to a doctor and someone at the university - student services or whoever. Start treatment and get yourselves extensions or extenuating circumstances or whatever, just the same way you would if you had a physical illness.

The truth is that these sorts of things are not easy for anyone, but they're also not nearly as hard as you're finding them. When we lose the will to live, things become much harder. A sizeable portion of students suffer the way you are, but most will get better.

 

[PuppyCatTeeth]

I relate so much. I'm so behind on university work because I don't have any motivation to do any of it. Honestly, I never even wanted to do any part of life to begin with as it was all imposed on me. I never once enjoyed going through school or university but i relied on my intelligence to carry me through. I can't do that anymore though since it's gotten to the point where I need to do hard work but I don't want to do hard work since I never wanted to live to begin with. I just don't know what to do. I don't care about any of this crap but I'm also too terrified to kill myself due to SI. In the end though, I may have to resort to killing myself since I'm definitely not getting anywhere in life

It's like you just read my mind. Im not even allowed to turn in work late in any classes so I'm fucked. I never studied and school and just got by on my natural intelligence too. I wish it was easier to die, I didn't want any of this.

 

[PuppyCatTeeth]

I remember I hated high school so much, especially one year.
Of course, I was forced to go there.
When I was sick, and I could stay at home, I felt so relieved.

The day I finished school was one of my favorite day ever, then I became a full Hikikomori/Neet.
I didn't care about anything.

Now, I have a job that...
I don't know, I had worst, but, same as for high school, I'm forced to go, of course.
There are days that I'm not in the mood, not at all.
But, you know.
Life sucks.

That was my same story with high school, I really hated it so much. I was a neet this year for about 7 months and I wish I could stay like that. What do you do for work?

 

[Zanmato]

That was my same story with high school, I really hated it so much. I was a neet this year for about 7 months and I wish I could stay like that. What do you do for work?

I work in a cinema.
It has his ups and down, of course.
This will be the last month with my contract, I still don't know if they will renew it.