How is it even possible I survived?

[goat]

So, I "tried" to CTB during the lockdown. I took some pills against nausea and mixed 70 crushed lexomils with some strong alcohol.
I thought I'd just sleep and not wake up anymore.
Well.
Guess what


I wokeup

I have no idea how many days later, spend more days I can't count completely out of my mind and not being able to stand without falling on the ground, not being able to formulate phrases, not being able to think, I was very confused and I can't remember very well things after that, I just remember I was falling a lot, even broke my phone and hit my head strongly at some point, this I remember cause of the marks. Till now, it has been a bit more than a month and I still feel my brain so slow, it's really hard to speak and write and just function, I have recent memory loss, I can't really remember shit anymore.
Could anyone tell me how is it even possible to have survived that, specially not being hospitalized? I just woke up at some point. I don't get it. I'm here. I can't understand.
PS.: I live alone and my work was closed due to lockdown (the only people that would notice I'm "missing") that's why no hospital or anything like this.

 

[poisonedminds]

I also tried to CTB during lockdown, I took a cocktail of 400+ pills. I vomited about 4-5 hours later and was eventually brought to the hospital after like 8-9 hours and stayed in the ICU, but still, I have no idea how I survived. I wish I hadn't.
The pills stayed in me long enough, they should've had time to be absorbed, right? I don't understand what happened. Sure, these weren't the most lethal pills in the world, but kids on tiktok die from taking 15 benadryl lmao. I had read medical reports and stuff, no one seemed to survive that amount of pills, yet here I am.
People are trying to tell me shit like ''it wasn't your time yet'' and ''only god can decide''. ugh.

 

[Fragile]

Because commercial benzodiazepines are a really safe drug for the vast majority of people, they replaced barbiturates and quaaludes specifically because benzos have an extremely low chance of killing you both on accidental and planned overdoses, despite the addiction potential being almost the same.

I'm not familiar with bromazepam since it seems to be a drug prescribed mostly on europe, so I don't really know it's potency, but from what I've read, most people compare it to lorazepam so it may not be as strong as alprazolam which is the one with the highest incidence on fatal overdoses, although this is mostly when people mix it with opioids.

Do you have any tolerance to them? this may be the reason why you avoided hospitalization.

 

[goat]

I also tried to CTB during lockdown, I took a cocktail of 400+ pills. I vomited about 4-5 hours later and was eventually brought to the hospital after like 8-9 hours and stayed in the ICU, but still, I have no idea how I survived. I wish I hadn't.
The pills stayed in me long enough, they should've had time to be absorbed, right? I don't understand what happened. Sure, these weren't the most lethal pills in the world, but kids on tiktok die from taking 15 benadryl lmao. I had read medical reports and stuff, no one seemed to survive that amount of pills, yet here I am.
People are trying to tell me shit like ''it wasn't your time yet'' and ''only god can decide''. ugh.

Yes! Maybe I'm really stupid but I can't understand how tf nothing happened, I don't remember having throw up, I having been in the hospital, I just can't get it. It was not a hallucination, there was still my glass with traces of the mix I drunk when I finally could think again near my bed.
I'm ignorant but I still very surprised I just wokeup.

Because commercial benzodiazepines are a really safe drug for the vast majority of people, they replaced barbiturates and quaaludes specifically because benzos have an extremely low chance of killing you both on accidental and planned overdoses, despite the addiction potential being almost the same.

I'm not familiar with bromazepam since it seems to be a drug prescribed mostly on europe, so I don't really know it's potency, but from what I've read, most people compare it to lorazepam so it may not be as strong as alprazolam which is the one with the highest incidence on fatal overdoses, although this is mostly when people mix it with opioids.

Do you have any tolerance to them? this may be the reason why you avoided hospitalization.

I'm totally ignorant on the subject, I'm just very shocked I just wokeup.
I don't know about tolerance to them. I just took them thinking I could just go to sleep and never more wakeup.

I live alone and I'm alone, I go weeks without talking to a soul (except for my job when not in lockdown) and there's absolutely no one to notice (and that's actually great), so I couldn't get any hospitalization exempt if I call the emergency myself but that's completely the opposite of my intentions.

 

[justpeachy]

Because benzodiazepines are basically impossible to overdose on alone. After all the deaths from barbiturates they stopped making them mostly (aside for a select few and are very difficult to get). Pills in general are a horrible way to go. They almost never will kill you and will often leave you with worse issues than before you took them. You could have taken 200 and odds are you would be in the same position. You should check out the resources section as it discusses why pills are not a good idea. Also, the book suicide and attempted suicide by geo stone is in the resource section and they go into detail about pills and why they never work (hardly ever) and if they do work it's often excruciatingly painful from organ failure, severe vomiting/dehydration, and takes 5-7 days at a minimum. It's definitely never going to be like falling asleep and not waking up with any sort of medication that is easy to obtain or legal to obtain.

 

[Ramirez]

That's an old thread though I believe. He hung himself. Dont think he gonna reply.