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IWantToSleep

Experienced
Dec 27, 2020
227
Title.
 
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Alwaysbadtime

Alwaysbadtime

Enlightened
Jun 28, 2021
1,158
Due to my brain hurting from stress and unhappiness I don't feel the sensation of being drunk anymore. I can't handle pot and other drugs just do nothing. I don't have anything to talk about so it isn't fun or whatever.

If I had access to major downers I would take them.
 
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everydayiloveyou

Arcanist
Jul 5, 2020
490
I've never drank, smoked or done any drugs besides drinking caffeine in coffee.

Personally I've never had any urge to. I'm legal so I could buy cigs or something but it's just in my mind and I never actually do it.

My immediate family did not do any of those things around me. Alcohol addiction runs in one half of my family though so I'm scared to try alcohol or stimulants especially since I have anxiety and apparently drinking/uppers can make it go away temporarily.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,621
I don't drink because I never think about it. It was always a social thing for me. I smoke pot though, it seems to suit the solitary lifestyle better
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,449
I used to abuse alcohol and other drugs but they stopped working too and made it worse.
 
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heretogethelp

Specialist
May 3, 2021
311
well i was raised muslim, so i've never tried
 
GoPeaceful

GoPeaceful

Message me if you need someone to talk to :)
May 14, 2018
61
Alcohol and Cannabis increase the sadness I experience tremendously. Benzodiazepines help to lead (at least for a couple of hours) to a normal healthy mindset, but lose their effectiveness really fast.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I abused alcohol however it only worked for so long. I begun doing it when my ex screwed me up years ago, I'm carrying a lot of emotional baggage from that incident he really really hurt me, I shouldn't feel so screwed up just from sleeping with a guy I didn't even know that long and it triggers me when they abandon me I become emotionally unstable I'm scared for myself
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,201
I abused alcohol and took a lot of prescription pills. The alcohol and weed made me paranoid and ill as fuck so I stopped taking them. I don't need to increase my paranoia with that shit.
 
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BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

Blackpilled
Dec 15, 2020
1,715
No. Been drinking heavily for 18 years with one year of sobriety. I was most suicidal when sober so I'm not planning on quitting again any time soon.
 
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mostlysober

New Member
May 25, 2021
1
I think for a lot of people in recovery, at least me, ending it while sober feels right. I would like people to know that I made this decision in full trust of myself, and not influenced by drugs or alcohol. Some days are better than others. I think if I started drinking again- I would probably want to stay alive to keep drinking. Who knows though, if I had the money I would probably go out like Nic Cage in Leaving Las Vegas.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
4,852
As a fairly rational person, I figured that spending huge sums of money (over the years - add it up!) on alcohol or needing to tackle additional health issues doesn't make sense. Aside from something occasional, alcohol doesn't seem to have any appeal. I'd be open to substances like pot that could actually help with pain management, but it's far from legal in Australia.
 
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HappyForever?

Love from the deepest dream
Feb 14, 2021
326
I'm afraid of making my life worse than it is now.
 
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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
I only abuse myself, which has also just made things worse.
 
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Insomniac

Insomniac

𝔄 𝔲 𝔱 𝔦 𝔰 𝔪
May 21, 2021
1,357
I abused benzos and now I am practically brain-dead. Drugs are a bad idea, no matter what. No matter what. Anything is better than addiction to drugs...especially hard drugs.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,789
They simply don't help (well, nothing can). I use them (for short term distraction and long term destruction), not the other way around.
 
SheJumped

SheJumped

Student
May 14, 2019
143
I drink every so often but the recovery from drinking as I get older isn't worth it.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
Alcohol ruined my life I begun abusing it 6 years ago. It's another reason why I want to CTB. I wish I never tried it, but now I notice it makes me incredibly suicidal
 
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clown_17

clown_17

Almost gone, it almost worked
Oct 24, 2020
288
Only reason is because of my meds. I don't feel any drugs anymore because of my anitpsychotics. I only get the bad side effects
 
mustard_glass

mustard_glass

Member
Aug 10, 2021
25
I don't have the money, otherwise I'd be getting Lahey-drunk on a daily basis.
 
one.way.out

one.way.out

Student
Jul 9, 2021
135
I turned to self-harm, porn, and music instead.
 
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frost

Member
Jul 22, 2020
13
Because it's not an option that I have access to
 
Titania

Titania

Ultimate Despair
Dec 31, 2018
46
Found other ways to cope such as sex, self-harm, and binge eating. Weed and alcohol I have tried but never really gotten addicted to.
 
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BrokenLine

Experienced
Jul 13, 2019
255
I've never drank, smoked or done any drugs besides drinking caffeine in coffee.

Personally I've never had any urge to. I'm legal so I could buy cigs or something but it's just in my mind and I never actually do it.

My immediate family did not do any of those things around me. Alcohol addiction runs in one half of my family though so I'm scared to try alcohol or stimulants especially since I have anxiety and apparently drinking/uppers can make it go away temporarily.
Yes this.

In my life I've been drunk twice I'm 41 I enjoyed the feeling but having an abusive alcoholic parent is how all my problems started, so drinking and drugs for me I know it would just add more problems to my life the short time benefits aren't worth it.
 
MrAsclepius

MrAsclepius

Грустная Сука
Jul 31, 2020
212
I wish this applied to me.