how has natural selection not weeded someone like me out already

[tomame]

i often feel like i'm one of the worst human beings to exist

that i'm deserving of nothing good

have fear that my thoughts and actions are inherently evil

i walk on eggshells in my own mind

i don't trust myself

i feel utterly helpless and feeble and feel i have no chance unless someone saves me

i didn't expect to make it past 27 and here im almost 31.

my partner of 10 years died and i'm consumed by guilt of it— for not only feeling responsible .. but, also because i wish it had been me instead

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry you struggle with so much self dislike. I always tend to wonder whether people that take time to self reflect and care about their actions in the first place can be so bad though. I imagine the outright bad people don't even care or take time to consider it.

As for natural selection though. I don't think it applies to the human world as much as the animal kingdom. Partly I suppose because people don't generally die from mental vulnerabilities. So- if they also reproduce- they reproduce those traits.

I suppose only we as individuals can try to guess why our parents thought it was a good idea to bring us here though.

 

[Pure Vanilla]

Natural selection has basically been killed by modern society, you can have 5000 disabilities and still live 80 years in the modern age

 

[shinitai-chan]

tbh this is what i think of all the time. i'm completely useless and meaningless to this world, i live an extremely unhealthy lifestyle yet i'm still healthy(not sure abt this because i never did my healthcheck but at least my body feels good and healthy), and the talented creators or people that have goals in their lives facing health problems stopping them from what they want to do ruining their lives. like how is it fair? honestly i'd give my body to someone else erasing my consciousness from this world if that was possible

 

[Topaz111]

Natural selection has basically been killed by modern society, you can have 5000 disabilities and still live 80 years in the modern age

God I wish science actually focused on improving *quality* of life rather than just extending its length by all cost.
We've gotten so good at keeping dying humans alive who would absolutely not make it in the wild, but there are so many non-terminal illnesses that make your life absolutely miserable with little to no way of improving how you feel..

 

[tomame]

tbh this is what i think of all the time. i'm completely useless and meaningless to this world, i live an extremely unhealthy lifestyle yet i'm still healthy(not sure abt this because i never did my healthcheck but at least my body feels good and healthy), and the talented creators or people that have goals in their lives facing health problems stopping them from what they want to do ruining their lives. like how is it fair? honestly i'd give my body to someone else erasing my consciousness from this world if that was possible

i would as well