Method how dumb is my CTB plan?

[halfstay]

So I plan to CTB impulsively, probably soon. Long story short, I am bipolar, cutting addict, and for some reason unaffected by almost all types of medications. My SH tendencies and psychosis are ramping up quickly.
My plan is to go to a nearby state park (specifically, the outskirts of one) and get lost in the wilderness until something eventually does me in. It's freezing where I live, we just had a giant snowstorm, so I imagine it'll be hypothermia. But I'm not opposed to injury, drowning, or animals either. Basically like a few days to a week of going buck wild manic, no phone, no shoes, just nature and me doing stupid shit. I'm pretty okay with it being long and painful. Kinda counting on the psychosis to kick in so I'll be on cloud nine lmao. I guess my biggest gripe with this (admittedly, very dumb plan) is being located. But I imagine if I keep moving for a while, especially given the difficult terrain and shit weather, it'd be extremely hard to find me.
if there's any glaring issues I'm overlooking, other than it just hurting and being unpredictable, do let me know. thanks!

 

[bipolar22]

Id rate it 0 out of 10. Nonsensical when ubcsnnuse a rope and a tree ans fade away Vijay hypoxic euphoria within 15 seconds so yeah pretty dumb idea to be blunt.

 

[Passenger4224]

How cold? Will there be any wind to make it cooler?

 

[halfstay]

How cold? Will there be any wind to make it cooler?

-1 wind chill I think tonight. honestly I'm in the car right now wondering if I should go. I have a perfect excuse too. I think it might be time for my little adventure lol

 

[theDunce]

yeah it sounds very unpredictable like you said. dying out there in the cold may not be horrible but then again, it could be horrible. not sure where you would drown but if it's cold then going into the water could be the quickest or the best way since it might numb you to death and then you can drown. however, I don't think I could do it that way, too many variables and too much danger. I may want to die but I also am trying to find the best way to do it that I can. who knows what can happen out there, maybe someone does find you and you have frosbite or some other issues that you are stuck with after the fact. I'd say a big NO on that idea.

 

[rainatthebusstop]

Too unpredictable with too many variables. You might survive. You might get found. Hypothermia is a famously horrible way to die.

The only good thing about it is the plausible deniability and even then they'll put you in the psychward

 

[halfstay]

heading there now

yeah it sounds very unpredictable like you said. dying out there in the cold may not be horrible but then again, it could be horrible. not sure where you would drown but if it's cold then going into the water could be the quickest or the best way since it might numb you to death and then you can drown. however, I don't think I could do it that way, too many variables and too much danger. I may want to die but I also am trying to find the best way to do it that I can. who knows what can happen out there, maybe someone does find you and you have frosbite or some other issues that you are stuck with after the fact. I'd say a big NO on that idea.

i understand, and I agree with you (and everyone else in the comments) to be honest. but I'm just gonna blame this one on the impulsivity. I actually drove to my location believe it or not. there actually is a bridge with water here and pretty much no one around. im feeling calmer so hopefully that helps. I didn't want to jump initially but whatever. if I do pussy out and end up in the ward I guess it is what it is. nothing really feels like it matters anymore so I think I'm fine with whatever the consequences of my actions are. I shouldn't have asked in the first place tbh, I think I already knew what I was gonna do