• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
bubblebunny

bubblebunny

Whisperer
Aug 18, 2023
39
I've never been loved and it drives me insane, I cry everyday & hit my head out of selfhate but I need something better? Any tips? Just something that can help me rest or sleep after.
 
AnxietyHangover

AnxietyHangover

Empty, medicated shell of a human
Aug 20, 2022
251
Psychiatric medicine often times blunts your emotions to the point where you become oblivious to anything. That's how it is for me.
 
dragonofenvy

dragonofenvy

Warlock
Oct 8, 2023
726
Just something that can help me rest or sleep after.
Have you looked into OTC sleep medications? I often feel very overwhelmed when trying to go to bed and will get violently angry, punching my doors, but sleep medications help me. I used to use trazodone but now I use melatonin since it's naturally produced by your body. Depending on how bad it is, you could maybe get a prescription medication.
 
slowlydying2mrrw

slowlydying2mrrw

Queen Bitch of the Universe
Apr 17, 2024
119
I've never been loved and it drives me insane, I cry everyday & hit my head out of selfhate but I need something better? Any tips? Just something that can help me rest or sleep after.
I can probably provide a bit of insight to your thread question.

I have BPD (borderline personality disorder) and one of the hallmark characteristics of BPD is intense emotions and rapidly shifting moods. The key for me, at least when I know I'm spiralling or having an emotional collapse, is to do my best to remain present. I ask myself if my emotions are a present danger or can I find a real world solution to self soothe, as emotional regulation techniques require a ton of awareness.

Realize you are ok and still a loveable human, even if the feelings aren't always consistent. It's not easy, but probably the best I got.

Sometimes, relationships and love, cause more issues and fuck up our traumas more. In a way, I envy you. Being betrayed and hurt by those you love and you think love you, is worse than never finding love.
 
  • Like
Reactions: SASU-KE
DeathWish3301

DeathWish3301

Experienced
May 15, 2024
204
I've never been loved and it drives me insane, I cry everyday & hit my head out of selfhate but I need something better? Any tips? Just something that can help me rest or sleep after.

I'm not trying to shill for the pharmaceutical industry by any means -- But have you considered psychiatric medication? It works for some people.

You're looking for tips so it sounds you may want to get better.

They could help stabilize your emotions and mood to a degree. There's meds that can help with your sleep also. It's an option.
 

Similar threads

U
Replies
9
Views
383
Suicide Discussion
urgent
U
primadonna_
Replies
4
Views
252
Suicide Discussion
itsgone2
I
T^T
Replies
4
Views
349
Suicide Discussion
Defenestration
Defenestration
MonochromeMind
Replies
11
Views
511
Suicide Discussion
MonochromeMind
MonochromeMind