How do you picture the rest of your life if you decided to live it til the end?

[Aeathelina]

Probably homeless somewhere alone till I off myself or murdered in an alley way.

 

[TheEndisNear121200]

A nightmare that I'd rather not even think about

 

[malti276]

A meaningless existence propped up by entertainment as a distraction.

 

[1DayItWillBover]

extreme loneliness and soul crushing regret

 

[awfullife]

I'll keep working 14 hours a day and living in a semi truck, talking to the same people about the same stories eating the same shitty truck stop food. Only my body will start to break down from the daily manual labor. I will keep being treated like a second class citizen at the shippers and make my 650 bucks a week after child support. My off time will be spent laying in bed cruising this forum because I cant afford a hobby nor cable subscription. My kids will resent me because they will also be depressed (1 with autism) and I will have no money to do fun things with them. Christmas? Yah Santa didnt come this year guys. Sorry. Go read a book or something.

Then when I make it to 67, I will have no savings for a proper retirement just living off social security from meal to meal.

It's weird how all the chicks arent interested anymore once the money is gone and you've aged 10 years.

 

[Gnip]

Unfortunately, I know, because I made the unforgivably stupid decision to try living it out to the end, and absolutely nothing has or can ever change

I'm scheduled for kidney stone surgery tomorrow morning. I hope I never wake up from the anesthesia, that I never know or am aware of anything ever again.

However, if I'm unfortunate enough to wake up and be discharged, an ultrasound recently revealed a polyp in my gallbladder. Hopefully when I get it checked again in a few months, it will be malignant and metastasized into terminal cancer.

The worst mistake of my life was not ending that life at age 15. I am in a position to promise that life doesn't get any better for those foolish and naïve enough to give it a chance, and that cruel and sadistic suicide prevention activist profiteers are among the most purely and completely evil morally bankrupt cretins who have ever existed.

 

[Good4Nothing]

The rest of my life will be just like today.
Same job, same apartment, same food, same video games, same soul crushing loneliness. Every day. Til I die.

 

[Deleted member 23009]

A hard question considering I've always felt I won't grow old, ever since I was little.

The dream is to be happy really, nothing too specific, happiness and someone to spend that life with. That would make up for some bad things in this world, at least for me.

But in reality, probably nothing special.
Eat, work, sleep. That's life.

I would probably want to live in an isolated and peaceful place, away from people.

Or.. just escape into VR and live there.

 

[Deleted member 23586]

Homeless, Alone, Attacked, And killed. Maybe even in that order.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Loveless, impoverished, frightening, humiliating, and painful.

 

[greebo6]

Cold , lonely (very) , single , poor and isolated.
I picture it as grim. Very grim.

 

[TheLostCause]

Empty and full of fear, fear of people, fear of everything a fear of living.

 

[Niftypoint124]

It depends on my headspace, honestly.

When I'm having a bad day, it's easy to envision myself without intimate partnership, low-income, uninsured with my health issues stacking up and going untreated.

On a good day, I imagine writing the book(s) my friends think I am capable of, making enough money to donate to homeless groups around my area or buying property that I would grant to them in order to turn into tiny-home developments, and being able to travel to see new and weird things that catch my fancy.

 

[Rn110bg101]

Misery, regret, homelessness, probably dying of hypothermia.

 

[thisismyusername]

I think about this all the time. If I were to live to the proper age, I can see myself struggling to pay rent, working my ass off to the bone, but crying in bed with my best friend, my husband. I think he would want kids at some point we found ourselves a little bit more comfortable beyond the struggles of youthful adulthood. Kids would be an adventure. If I could choose a place to move to and retire, rn it would be either Chicago or Austin, but moreso Austin because its just too damn beautiful there and the people just speak my language. I think if I were to keep on living, I would just continue my everchanging search to find my people.

 

[Wayfaerer]

I would never live. I'd "survive" living a subpar existence as a pharma zombie w/ chronic pain, working a menial job so I could pay taxes towards a society that I thoroughly loathe and despise until I died of "natural causes" when I'm in my 50's or 60's. During that, the "psychological professionals" tell me to pick up a hobby like finger painting or some such horseshit in order to pass the time.

Yeah nah fuck that I'm out.

 

[speck]

I'd struggle to keep myself financially stable, possibly end up homeless. I would not be able to find success in any career because I don't understand or like dealing with people. My dreams of having a family were manipulated and ground out by almost a decade of narcissistic abuse, so I don't think I would ever be able to date anyone again or fall in love. I'd forever be distressed knowing that I meant nothing to someone I gave everything to, while they moved on without me. I'd waste my time trying to be motivated and eager, when my ship had long passed. I think it's better for me to just go.

 

[NightmareTour]

Slowly declining neurological and physical capabilities, more stressful and unnecessary medical bullshit that doesn't fix anything but makes it look like doctors are trying. My chronic pain will get worse along with everything else, but doctors will still refuse to give me pain medication. I won't try to get my social life back, I'll just keep to mysekf until eventually I'm not capable of having a social life anyway. When that happens I'll probably just be stuck in my own head with nothing but the horrible memories I've spent every day trying to avoid. The stress of looking after me will ruin my family's lives. My mum will stop working again, and make herself feel better about the time spent neglecting me when I was younger by doing things she thinks I'll enjoy like taking me to see animals, putting on music, or sitting me outside, even though I'll have no idea what's going on around me. Deep down she'll know that, but she'll do it anyway- it's for her, not me. My dad will visit regularly at first once he hears about how bad I'm getting, but eventually it'll be too much for him and he'll only visit occasionally, or stop completely. He'll blame himself for not being there more when I was still able to acknowledge it. Basically, everyone will suddenly start caring once I'm not able to actually benefit from it.

Statistically I'm unlikely to live more than another 5-10 years anyway, so that's something.

 

[ImmortalTaoist]

If I ever do get better or "live life", I picture myself not working, living on a farm or ranch of sorts with animals and self sustainable veggies and stuff of the sort and traveling and doing what I please or "enjoy" in life. Basically just nature and animals

 

[Lady black]

Lonely and full of pain and sadness

 

[Spyware]

Chronic back pains because of untreated scoliosis

 

[Deleted member 94]

Mine scares me. My 20s have been awful and traumatic. My 30s will probably be similar. Then middle age will come and i'll feel the regrets of youth hit me hard. They already are now but there's a very small hope left.

I'm in my prime and yet I'm always afraid of being attacked in public, so I just stay home, which isn't fun. When I'm older, i'll be even more vulnerable and probably will be attacked. More trauma.

Why do you fear being attacked outside, do you suffer from psychosis?

extreme loneliness and soul crushing regret

Same also might end up in nursing home feels like I'm already in one despite having a family. They don't care about me much.

 

[Kramer]

Why do you fear being attacked outside, do you suffer from psychosis?

Same also might end up in nursing home feels like I'm already in one despite having a family. They don't care about me much.

I have ptsd and am always anxious to some degree even at home.

 

[Raminiki]

An unrewarded, unrelenting struggle. The universe loves to shit on me and wear me down into ever deeper misery. I have zero hope, zero expectations of things improving. I despair of the state of the world and humanity, am persecuted by my government for depending on social support. I would say my worldview is pessemistic, except that I've never been wrong about things getting worse or failing to pan out. I'm a realist and a nihilist. There is no meaning to life and it will not smile upon you for being self-sacrificing and a good person. I always catastrophise and prepare for trouble, and it pays off because humanity continues to disappoint, betray and ignore me. There is no cure nor help nor relief for my many comorbid conditions and should I fight to continue existing, I can likely look forward to dementia, alzheimer's, heart disease and/or cancer caused by decades of severely poor mental health and brain damage. Plus my bipolar is guaranteed to worsen with age. I will lose my mind should I not take my life beforehand. I'm condemned.