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Boots2Scoots

Boots2Scoots

Piece of dirt
Jan 23, 2025
40
I'd imagine that a lot of you probably have the same question. Today is a good day for me due to being busy. Being with people helps get my mind off the despairity that is existence and the human condition. At least it keeps me busy for a while. Visiting

But on the days where it's the normal of wake up, work, go home, eat, sleep... how do you escape everything? What is your reason for not ctb on the days when everything is overwhelming and your mind just won't let up? The pointlessness of existence, past traumas and regrets just seem to eat me up and it's feels impossible to keep pushing knowing that life will cave in on itself at any point.
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
104
I manage to distract myself from the real world mostly thanks to video games
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,803
I'm just waiting for my final day to come. In the meantime, I'm just spending my time watching right to die and efilist videos to alleviate my suffering
 
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billie

billie

i'm worthless
Mar 31, 2024
523
i try to distract myself
 
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NitrogenAfternoon

NitrogenAfternoon

Member
Jan 20, 2025
21
I use it as a reminder of why I am doing this. I just know it's going to be over soon, and I don't have to suffer for much longer. It has given me so much peace and happiness getting my plan together. The anxiousness of awaiting for my supplies is nothing like what I was facing before.
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,638
Doom scroll
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
204
Although I know my suicide is inevitable, I try to keep myself busy, even on days off from work. The thoughts still linger in the back of my mind.
 
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Daxter777

Daxter777

Member
May 22, 2023
95
If i get orders I work if I don't then i distract my self with games, reddit or netflix. Im thinking of getting in to DnD just to socialize since I don't really have people to talk to...
 
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S like suicide

S like suicide

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,506
Through desperation😖😣😞
 
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soonnotkoei

soonnotkoei

got my foot in the grave
Sep 24, 2024
143
video games. otherwise if i let my mind without distraction, the dread starts setting in.
 
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loneloser

loneloser

i wanna sleep 4ever <3
Jan 16, 2025
67
Video games as many other people above have also said. Even though I don't even find enjoyment in playing anything anymore. I used to play multiplayer games with friends that I used to have. They were enjoyable. I just play games to pass time now.

Other than that I just lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling while listening to really loud music with my headphones.
 
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Arachno

Arachno

oh no :(
Apr 10, 2023
252
Distracting myself with a LOT of daydreaming and music, reading wikipedia is also kind of relaxing
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
1,267
Maladaptive daydreaming and lots of crying.
 
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Tortured_empath

Tortured_empath

Arcanist
Apr 7, 2019
487
Good question. Entertainment, food, cigarettes, sunlight, forgetting my predicament for a slight moment
 
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lavenderlilylies

lavenderlilylies

Member
Sep 24, 2024
87
Distractions, from the moment i wake up till i fall back asleep. Every waking moment is filled with stimulation/daydreaming
 
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JesiBel

JesiBel

Harpy
Dec 5, 2024
89
If I'm in crisis: I cut myself/cry+sleep. If not: maybe I draw a little, or listen to music, or read something, or come here to the forum (:
 
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crocune

Student
Nov 27, 2024
140
Avoided stress and was happy go lucky neet for 10 years cuz my mother provided me with everything and I live frugally and I distracted myself with entertainment and never confronted myself nor the way I lived, passing the days one by one achieving nothing.

Suddenly woke up from this coma a few weeks ago and now everything is coming down on me like a ton of bricks. Even my favorite pass time, sleep, is now unenjoyable because it is plagued by worries and panic attacks
 
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Boots2Scoots

Boots2Scoots

Piece of dirt
Jan 23, 2025
40
If I'm in crisis: I cut myself/cry+sleep. If not: maybe I draw a little, or listen to music, or read something, or come here to the forum (:
This forum has been my main relief from it all tbh. It's always so comforting seeing people who are on the "same wavelength" as me when I'm in the gutter
Holy crap! I'm overwhelmed with all of these responses. (Not pro-life nonsense) i hope you all have a good day today and can smile for a change. I know I am. Might only be for the day but it's a much needed change up from every other day <3
 
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onthefence

onthefence

Leaning towards leaving
Dec 31, 2024
89
I have started using stimulants. They work pretty well except for the side effects of making my anxiety worse, feeling dissociated, and seemingly not being able to stop talking even when people are looking at me like I've lost my mind. I'm really working on the last one- I'm going to stop initiating conversations that aren't required.
I also use distractions- I have watched entire seasons of multiple shows in the last few months.
And self harm when I just can't cope anymore.
 
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Boots2Scoots

Boots2Scoots

Piece of dirt
Jan 23, 2025
40
Idk if my last comment posted but thank you everybody for all the responses! I'm a little overwhelmed at the prispect of answering all of you so I won't. But it's nice to see other peoples' coping mechanisms to all of this madness.
Hope all of you had/have a good day today. We all deserve to smile once in a while. No matter how bad the pain is. I've only been a member here for a few days but thank you for making me feel at home in a weird way <3
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
1,190
Personally I just do what's right in front of me. I do what needs to be done today. I keep it very simple. I try to do for someone other than myself each day.
And I try to create something each day, like cooking something for dinner, making ice cream.
I don't want today to go exactly as yesterday.
🤗🌹💔
 
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Boots2Scoots

Boots2Scoots

Piece of dirt
Jan 23, 2025
40
Personally I just do what's right in front of me. I do what needs to be done today. I keep it very simple. I try to do for someone other than myself each day.
And I try to create something each day, like cooking something for diner, making ice cream.
I don't want today to go exactly as yesterday.
🤗🌹💔
I think that's what it's all about honestly. I try to focus on the small things whether it's hour by hour or minute by minute. I appreciate your feedback!
 
KinderEgg

KinderEgg

There's no surprise inside
Jan 15, 2025
5
Distraction mostly, usually mindless multiplayer games with music until I pass out.
 
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darkenmydoorstep

darkenmydoorstep

Not Waving But Browned Off….
Sep 27, 2023
609
I have a count down clock on my phone literally counting down the hours til my child is 18 and my mortgage is paid (basically when I can leave this bleak situation)
Seeing the days and hours dwindle makes me happy.

Sometimes I go on the death clock site where you enter your age and habits and it estimates a date of death for you. I'm 50 now so again, getting nearer. ❤️

I sleep a lot. The next best thing to death.
 
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leaftomb

leaftomb

let's live fast and die young
Jun 15, 2024
82
i legit just sleep whenever i don't have anything to do anymore. i wake up, get ready, go to class, come back and sleep. and well, sometimes i roam around here. i don't do much with my life but at least it goes by faster
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
1,190
I think that's what it's all about honestly. I try to focus on the small things whether it's hour by hour or minute by minute. I appreciate your feedback!
Ya its the little things in life. 🤗🌹💔
 
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Boots2Scoots

Boots2Scoots

Piece of dirt
Jan 23, 2025
40
I have a count down clock on my phone literally counting down the hours til my child is 18 and my mortgage is paid (basically when I can leave this bleak situation)
Seeing the days and hours dwindle makes me happy.

Sometimes I go on the death clock site where you enter your age and habits and it estimates a date of death for you. I'm 50 now so again, getting nearer. ❤️

I sleep a lot. The next best thing to death.
Sleep ironically enough is what gets me to step back most of the time. Do I wish I won't wake up? Heck yeah. But do I also love the comfort of sleeping in my bed with my cats? Fuckin hell yeah I do.
 
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Anhaedra

Anhaedra

Account Disabled
May 5, 2024
94
Being busy with work and other personal projects, gaming, hanging out with "friends", listening to music, and taking naps.
 
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_Maya

_Maya

Suicider.
Jan 26, 2025
18
I play a lot of games, listen to music, scroll tiktok, occasionally message friends when they actually want to talk to me. Basically just on the internet 24/7.
 
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