Discussion How do you know you are ready to die?

[RandomDude1234]

I know that I want to die but there is this nagging feeling in my head that keeps springing up doubts in my head.

How do you know that you are ready to die?

 

[MyLifeisHell]

What kinds of things is that nagging feeling telling you?

Ambivalence is normal and it is probably unrealistic to eliminate it completely. The question one should ask is whether continuing to live with all that entails is worth it.

 

[Hope:-)]

Having exhausted all other options.x

 

[RandomDude1234]

What kinds of things is that nagging feeling telling you?

That If I'm truly sure. Just that.

 

[jodes2]

I would say if you have doubts, you're not ready. That's not to say one should act impulsively either while they don't have doubts - it needs to be a sustained doubt-free period. Months or years ideally because doubts can hide themselves and it's not worth throwing in the can on a whim, mainly because of the hurt it causes others. But personally I'm willing to throw my life away as long as I don't have doubts that people around me will be able to cope

 

[RandomDude1234]

Having exhausted all other options.x

What are all the other options?

I would say if you have doubts, you're not ready. That's not to say one should act impulsively either while they don't have doubts - it needs to be a sustained doubt-free period. Months or years ideally because doubts can hide themselves and it's not worth throwing in the can on a whim, mainly because of the hurt it causes others. But personally I'm willing to throw my life away as long as I don't have doubts that people around me will be able to cope

I have wanted to kill myself for over a decade now. I have always stopped myself at the very end because the doubts never leave me or I chicken out.

My dounts aren't solid; it's just a nagging feeling. Not even a what if. Just a nagging feeling tugging at the back of my mind.

 

[Brokensaddle]

I know that I want to die but there is this nagging feeling in my head that keeps springing up doubts in my head.

How do you know that you are ready to die?

I've lost everything!

I'm constantly living a nightmarish life where every joy in my life has been zapped out. I have no desire or dreams of the future. Having suicide as a means of escape pretty much the only thing holding me together. I feel I'm ready this time because a combination of having lost everything, no desire and now having sn and the ability to ctb successfully makes suicide so much more appealing then actually living my life.

 

[ojinzo]

Everyday is torture.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

Because I already feel that way on the inside and it's all I think about 24/7.
I can't see why I feel this way on the inside and why it's all I think about 24/7 if something in me isn't ready to go.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that it's a feeling of certainty where the person knows that they are ready to leave, they just know that it's time. In a lot of cases maybe the individual gets so desperate to leave and this allows them to overcome the SI and any fears that they might have. I also think that people often feel ready when they have a method plan that they feel confident that they will succeed with.

 

[Hiraeth Grimoire]

Once you have seen enough to know things here aren't worthwhile anymore, you are ready for the final battle. The last boss to defeat is the many-faced dragon of survival instinct, loyally guarding the gateway to the otherworld. I believe this beast can be slain either impulsively in the heat of the moment with passion, or calmly overpowered if one can remain composed and act in accordance with prior knowledge they have accumulated about life. Survival instinct will feed you many narratives and lies, which would otherwise be brushed off as irrational and petty. This unholy entity is a great deceiver, using many sly tactics (specifically, guilt-tripping and adrenaline rushes) to send you recoiling back to the land of the living. This creature has prevented many a fellow sufferer from entering the gates of infinity, as it is one of the head wardens of our prison. However, many of us have already overwhelmed this corrupt sentinel by sleight of hand or by showing it no quarter. So it is by no means an impossible feat to escape the confines of one's meat prison and venture into the lands of the great beyond. I will be doing battle with our shared enemy tomorrow, it will be a private duel with a few spectators. My weapon of choice is crippling despair, which will hopefully enable me to subdue the reptilian by virtue of this dark resolve. I wish you all the best of luck during your final hour of the endgame, and I will see you on the other side!

 

[takemenowpls]

Crippling despair… I think that sums it up. I feel this all day everyday. I wake up with it and it cripples me. Causes me to not want to do ANYTHING. live like that long enough and you'll ctb

 

[outrider567]

I know that I want to die but there is this nagging feeling in my head that keeps springing up doubts in my head.

How do you know that you are ready to die?

When I get so desperately tired from seeing images of her last two days in the hospital, helpless to do anything for her, comparing those awful images to the memories of a young woman many years ago who was so optimistic and happy about her life.........and who made my own life so much better

 

[Everlong]

Once you have seen enough to know things here aren't worthwhile anymore, you are ready for the final battle. The last boss to defeat is the many-faced dragon of survival instinct, loyally guarding the gateway to the otherworld. I believe this beast can be slain either impulsively in the heat of the moment with passion, or calmly overpowered if one can remain composed and act in accordance with prior knowledge they have accumulated about life. Survival instinct will feed you many narratives and lies, which would otherwise be brushed off as irrational and petty. This unholy entity is a great deceiver, using many sly tactics (specifically, guilt-tripping and adrenaline rushes) to send you recoiling back to the land of the living. This creature has prevented many a fellow sufferer from entering the gates of infinity, as it is one of the head wardens of our prison. However, many of us have already overwhelmed this corrupt sentinel by sleight of hand or by showing it no quarter. So it is by no means an impossible feat to escape the confines of one's meat prison and venture into the lands of the great beyond. I will be doing battle with our shared enemy tomorrow, it will be a private duel with a few spectators. My weapon of choice is crippling despair, which will hopefully enable me to subdue the reptilian by virtue of this dark resolve. I wish you all the best of luck during your final hour of the endgame, and I will see you on the other side!

Thou hast made min day, Dear Knight. For myself; if I should toast a recommended cocktail of NaNO2, a twist of lime with a sprig of mint holding a giant middle finger to the gate keeper while uttering such poetry through a cocked grin and a clear conscience, I declare myself, indeed, ready.

 

[Darrenloses]

When I know for sure I'm in financial ruin and cannot continue with my job

 

[summers]

When you can rap along to this word for word, you know you're ready...

 

[Sadboyspecimen]

I keep breaking down in front of people. Exposing how weak and vulnerable and depressed I am. This leads people to either take advantage of me or makes them view me in a way I really don't want to be seen. Most people get creeped out by the way I overshare. All I do with my life is sit outside my apartment and smoke and bitch about things that have happened to anyone who shows me even the slightest attention. I haven't established a real connection with anyone for several years now. I'm sick of embarrassing myself like I do, but I really just can't seem to stop. It's habitual at this point. It's time to end this nonsense once and for all.

 

[Everlong]

I keep breaking down in front of people. Exposing how weak and vulnerable and depressed I am. This leads people to either take advantage of me or makes them view me in a way I really don't want to be seen. Most people get creeped out by the way I overshare. All I do with my life is sit outside my apartment and smoke and bitch about things that have happened to anyone who shows me even the slightest attention. I haven't established a real connection with anyone for several years now. I'm sick of embarrassing myself like I do, but I really just can't seem to stop. It's habitual at this point. It's time to end this nonsense once and for all.

I know the feeling. I spend so much time in my own head swatting away attacks from myself, I don't have any attention or energy to engage the "real world" with any dignified response. So I embarrass myself, crouch back in my head, rinse and repeat. Breaking that cycle is the mystery. At what point do you correct course? Or do you? It's a reprieve to come here and see posts that I could've written not judging or being judged. A strange feeling you might call "hope". But hope for what? I hope you get a break from your cycle…if only fir a little while.

 

[Hiraeth Grimoire]

Thou hast made min day, Dear Knight. For myself; if I should toast a recommended cocktail of NaNO2, a twist of lime with a sprig of mint holding a giant middle finger to the gate keeper while uttering such poetry through a cocked grin and a clear conscience, I declare myself, indeed, ready.

Cheers my fellow of the fabled chalice! May we drink to our departure from erath! And upon said departure, let us bury thy swords hilt deep into the arse of the bastard child of the demiurge, SI!

 

[Muach]

For me, to give up on life is, to give up on God. knowing you don't concern him to a tiny bit for him to intervene.

 

[fastneasyTossout]

When I know for sure I'm in financial ruin and cannot continue with my job

That is me right now and my jobs on the way out

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

When you have nothing holding you back. When you lose all hope.

 

[TimetoGo!]

I've lost everything!

I'm constantly living a nightmarish life where every joy in my life has been zapped out. I have no desire or dreams of the future. Having suicide as a means of escape pretty much the only thing holding me together. I feel I'm ready this time because a combination of having lost everything, no desire and now having sn and the ability to ctb successfully makes suicide so much more appealing then actually living my life.

what does SN and CTB mean?

what you said is the same feelings as I get........life has been zapped out of me and I want to escape it

 

[Astronauta]

Quando fico tão desesperadamente cansado de ver imagens dela nos últimos dois dias no hospital, impotente para fazer qualquer coisa por ela, comparando essas imagens horríveis com as memórias de uma jovem muitos anos atrás que estava tão otimista e feliz com sua vida. .......e que fez minha própria vida muito melhor

Isso partiu meu coração
Eu me sinto assim .
Era feliz, saúde e energia. Hoje não tenho nada disso.

 

[Escapee]

For me, to give up on life is, to give up on God. knowing you don't concern him to a tiny bit for him to intervene.

I know your feeling. I was also hurt by God's silence. But I can't give up on him because I need him in the after life or where else would I go after I die. I would rather ask him whY when I meet him there than denying him now. But I am still hurt by him

 

[downndone2]

That is me right now and my jobs on the way out

Ditto! If I lose my job I'm out

 

[yyytry]

I keep breaking down in front of people. Exposing how weak and vulnerable and depressed I am. This leads people to either take advantage of me or makes them view me in a way I really don't want to be seen. Most people get creeped out by the way I overshare. All I do with my life is sit outside my apartment and smoke and bitch about things that have happened to anyone who shows me even the slightest attention. I haven't established a real connection with anyone for several years now. I'm sick of embarrassing myself like I do, but I really just can't seem to stop. It's habitual at this point. It's time to end this nonsense once and for all.

Yes. Deteriorating personal/social capital via self sabotage, embarrassment and alienation.

 

[silent star]

Nothing to lose, nothing to gain

 

[unnormal9]

When people start telling you to kill yourself directly, indirectly and indiscreetly.