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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,758
Yesterday i was in a pub and the crowd seemed jolly, dancing and enjoying, but i felt disconnected (as inferior) frustrated, powerless, wretched, dejected and utterly lonely.

Does it resonates with you?
How do you feel when you go out at night?
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
i go to the pub and nightclubs occasionally by myself get drunk and dance the night away doesn't bother me that i am alone i have a good time by myself getting drunk
 
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thebookofdisquiet

thebookofdisquiet

Member
Jul 21, 2023
87
The moment I step out of my house I completely dissociate, I act and interact how I'm "supposed to", being assertive and polite, but my mind is PAUSED. Absolutely no feelings or thoughts other than "where do I need to go and what needs to be done so I can go home again".
 
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thrashisland

thrashisland

Member
Jul 21, 2023
37
I feel free. That maybe someone can take the burden off my hands or can show me a new adventure. Though as a woman its inherently scary it sparks adrenaline within me.
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,758
i go to the pub and nightclubs occasionally by myself get drunk and dance the night away doesn't bother me that i am alone i have a good time by myself getting drunk
I feel free. it sparks adrenaline within me.
Its kind of addictive, but i don't usually have a good time. I understand that people who have a good time like it so much.
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,520
I never go out at night. I have no where to go, and no one to go there with. And I don't drink, so bars wouldn't appeal to me, anyway. The most "out" I ever do is to the grocery stores.
 
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Wyldfyre4948

Wyldfyre4948

Waiting for my bus
Jul 12, 2023
378
Sadly I don't go out anymore. Once a week I go out to get groceries, but that is the limit to me being out.
 
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leavingsoon99

I'm at peace... Finally.
Mar 16, 2023
721
I feel like I don't belong here. I'm not human. I can't wait to pull the trigger.
 
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NambaSutra

Student
Mar 25, 2023
190
I don't leave my house except in full daylight. In the winter when it's cloudy and rainy for months I don't leave at all.
 
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MyChoiceAlone

MyChoiceAlone

sleep deprived and/or drunk
Jul 23, 2023
1,231
actually i only go out at night. is that weird?
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,278
Fear everytime I'm in public. PTSD is a living hell
 
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leavingsoon99

I'm at peace... Finally.
Mar 16, 2023
721
Yesterday i was in a pub and the crowd seemed jolly, dancing and enjoying, but i felt disconnected (as inferior) frustrated, powerless, wretched, dejected and utterly lonely.

Does it resonates with you?
How do you feel when you go out at night?
I feel you.
 
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onceinthefuturewas

onceinthefuturewas

Member
Apr 13, 2023
71
I think I prefer to drink by myself, without others.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,245
Sadly I don't really go out at night anymore but actually I wouldn't mind going out alone or with friends, that would also depend where I'd go and my mood, bar/restaurant/pub/party there so many ways to spend a night out.
 
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