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How do you feel about xmas this year?

  • I am super exited!

    Votes: 2 3.9%
  • I'm quite exited.

    Votes: 1 2.0%
  • I look forward to it.

    Votes: 2 3.9%
  • Aok/neutral

    Votes: 8 15.7%
  • I kinda dread it

    Votes: 6 11.8%
  • I dread it quite a lot

    Votes: 1 2.0%
  • I really dread it.

    Votes: 6 11.8%
  • I just wish it was over

    Votes: 15 29.4%
  • I think it's rough but I'm trying to make the best out of it

    Votes: 4 7.8%
  • Mixed emotions/idk how I feel

    Votes: 6 11.8%

  • Total voters
    51
Silent_cries

Silent_cries

Too many flashbacks, can't take it anymore! Help!
Aug 10, 2021
1,434
Sorry if you're having a rough time, so am I, you're not alone. 🤗
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
499
It's going to be my last Christmas so I'm not really sure. Excited to spend it with family. Sad. Guilty. A wide range of emotions I guess. It's hard to be happy this holiday season when I'm hiding something so dreadful from everyone I love.
 
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meltskelt

meltskelt

who?
Aug 11, 2023
82
It's going to be my last Christmas so I'm not really sure. Excited to spend it with family. Sad. Guilty. A wide range of emotions I guess. It's hard to be happy this holiday season when I'm hiding something so dreadful from everyone I love.
yeah, it's my last as well and it is weird when you start to think that there will not be another holiday like this and no one actually know that...
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Enlightened
Apr 15, 2024
1,491
I feel like Xmas should be banned or at least kept behind four walls in private, not crammed down everyone's throat
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
39,214
Everyday for me is just another day of suffering and waiting to die in this existence I always saw as the most torturous, futile mistake, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence I never would have chose and I find it so painful how I cannot just have the option to simply die in peace to finally prevent all future unnecessary suffering. No matter what I will always find it so dreadful to exist and I feel so much dread for what lies ahead, I'd always prefer to die than prolong the suffering this existence causes and it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, all I hope for is the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep.
 
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MidnightCat

MidnightCat

Still 3 more lives to go.
Jan 1, 2023
219
Dad died 4 days before last Christmas, he loved spending this time of the year with me but I usually couldn't.

Now... I'm not really sure what to do. Even thinking of telling wife to go with the family while I just... Exist.. at the bed. I'll do my best to spend the whole day sleeping.
 
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-Link-

-Link-

Deep Breaths
Aug 25, 2018
616
"I am super excited!"

lol... I appreciate the laugh...

Numbbbbbbb
 
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PumpkinLatte1

Member
Aug 3, 2024
14
A little overwhelmed, but not terrible.
 
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savory

Student
Nov 25, 2024
120
I kinda dread it. Thanksgiving was more unpleasant than I anticipated. I'll have drugs from my psychiatrist by then (hopefully for insomnia) so I'll probably sleep through xmas, or just drink, which isn't a habit of mine.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Meowing to go out
Dec 27, 2020
4,179
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,358
I'm indifferent about it since I don't celebrate it anyway
 
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Silent_cries

Silent_cries

Too many flashbacks, can't take it anymore! Help!
Aug 10, 2021
1,434
I'm indifferent about it since I don't celebrate it anyway
Yeah, sorry, I was going to add that as an option but couldn't fit it. Aok/neutral kinda covers it though.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,687
I'm kinda neutral and I don't care.

However, I have good memories of Xmas when I was kid and young adult - I better not think about it.

The Xmas days will be days like any other here, nothing really special.
 
Custos

Custos

Member
May 27, 2024
14
Worst day of the year. I know who will be visiting me on Christmas, good old saint knife.
 
ben_

ben_

I'm Ben.
Oct 31, 2023
60
I survived Christmas couple times before and I guess I'm gonna try to do the same this time.
 
Prism

Prism

💔
Jul 15, 2024
54
I don't feel up to it at all. I hope it goes okay for anyone else dreading it 🎄
 
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internetyamero

internetyamero

༄.°🏮
Oct 17, 2024
7
i look forward to it somewhat. i have good memories of the holiday, i get something out of it, and i've always thought the way people decorate for it was quite cute, but the social aspect sucks and having to go shopping in the weeks before for anything is way too overwhelming, since everyone is buying gifts.

at least it isn't thanksgiving.
 
Red Moon

Red Moon

Warlock
Sep 21, 2022
727
I'm just not interested in it all. I'm just mixed about it, I liked it more as a kid and when I wasn't in a bad place.

In fact I'm going to have to buy presents for the family, so I dread it in a way.
 
billie

billie

sad and suicidal
Mar 31, 2024
412
my friends died by suicide before christmas
 

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