Help How do you deal with Loneliness?

[SadRatQueen]

I make attempts to talk to 'friends' but I'm pretty sure they are anything but. The moment I start to show my bpd symptoms they're very quick to distance themselves and leave me at my lowest of lows.

I cope by shing. If I don't sh, I try my best to distract myself with movies/videos. music, and games.

 

[alltoomuch2]

I have no one in rl other than my previously violent and abusive mother who I still feel obligated to support. I only have my psych nurse and I can only see him every two weeks due to his heavy caseload. I've started using Ruby Wax's online Frazzled Cafe. It's a bit hit and miss depending on who else takes part but I know I won't be attacked or vocally judged there so I use it in desperation.
I also get drunk, binge eat to get me through because the "good" coping techniques don't work. Atm I'm trying to work out how I get hold of weed gummies in the UK because I'm naive as shit about illegal drugs.