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Thefuture
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- Feb 28, 2022
- 78
I was just at the supermarket and notice as I turned around 3 of the night shift guys were looking. You know how you can instantly tell when people are talking shit?
instantly made me feel super embarrassed for no reason. I was just minding my business looking for food for my cat. Now I feel so sad... I dunno what they would've been making fun of. But in my head now I run through everything I'm self conscious of. And as I walk past them I just wanna die inside. I rarely leave my house now I never wanna go outside again. I feel like I can't protect myself from ass holes. I feel like people can read how fucked up and weak I am without even having a conversation with me. I wanna die... this is why I don't live my life. I stay ainside away from all the bullshit. Away from reality. In my little safe space where no one and nothing can hurt me. Like a little fucking bitch. I hate myself. I'm too fucking weak. Sometimes I wish I were homeless or had no money so I'd have the guts to kill myself. Because I have everything taken care of for me. In my own sad little world. Time to die man, Idk why I'm scared. I'm more scared to live so it only make sense.
instantly made me feel super embarrassed for no reason. I was just minding my business looking for food for my cat. Now I feel so sad... I dunno what they would've been making fun of. But in my head now I run through everything I'm self conscious of. And as I walk past them I just wanna die inside. I rarely leave my house now I never wanna go outside again. I feel like I can't protect myself from ass holes. I feel like people can read how fucked up and weak I am without even having a conversation with me. I wanna die... this is why I don't live my life. I stay ainside away from all the bullshit. Away from reality. In my little safe space where no one and nothing can hurt me. Like a little fucking bitch. I hate myself. I'm too fucking weak. Sometimes I wish I were homeless or had no money so I'd have the guts to kill myself. Because I have everything taken care of for me. In my own sad little world. Time to die man, Idk why I'm scared. I'm more scared to live so it only make sense.