How do I successfully walk through this door?

[Failedtime]

I have sat with SN, I've sat on the railing of a bridge, I've sat with a plastic bag and zip ties... I've sat with suicide for too long and I'm tired.

I want to be gone. I'm angry with myself. My failure to follow through with this mirrors most every other area of my life. How do I shit of get off the pot? What change do I have to make? How do I get some fucking balls and squeeze the trigger?

 

[ZeroM24]

I'm asking myself the same. It's so humiliating to think about this every day and not having the strenght to just do it, it feels like the most absurd kind of failure.

 

[AnderDethsky]

Bump, it's the same for me. Personally, I hope that SI will not be able to hold me back throughout my life as much, I hope that it is just not time for me to die, and that in fact, when the time comes, I will be able to leave this life without difficulty. Otherwise I will have to face old age, and no, it is even more unbearable, I don't even want to imagine myself old, and surely it can't be that even then SI won't give up for me, or even sooner.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, I also just wish to be gone. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find what you are searching for.