I will listen if you need someone, Maybe its hard if you know the person already.
I guess I don't know where to start, so forgive me if this is long.
To preface, I know my reasons behind this will seem superficial or stupid to some. But I cannot fully describe how much this has pained and defined my life.
growing up I refused to take care of my teeth. My parents, while not entirely neglectful persay. Didn't really bother to establish the habit, and didn't really pay attention when I stopped brushing my teeth. I was a stupid kid, I knew I should be doing it, but I didn't. And everytime i visited the dentist there were no major issues, so i figured it was not a big deal.
By the age of 10, i got all my adult teeth and also got braces on them. During this period i continued my lack of care, and also began consuming tons of sugar. Can't really blame myself there - I loved soda, candy, and I had ample access to them.
By the age of 13, I got my braces off and my teeth were ruined. I realized in hindsight that this combination (braces, sugar, bad hygiene), is essentially the only way possible to completely wreck your teeth in a few short years. I got it all "fixed" at the time, it must've taken 10 hours in the chair.
I'm not going to get into the nitty gritty details of how this has affected my life. In summary, now as a grown adult, I think about it every second of every day. Shame, regret, anger, insecurity, is unbearable. It's kind of unexplainable the pain I feel to someone who hasn't experienced this. Best way I can describe it is - we're all very attached to our teeth, they're important. How would you feel now, if a dentist drilled away at almost every single tooth in your mouth. Imagine living half a decade without the ability to fully smile. Imagine living a life that is almost perfect, except that you cant bear to look at yourself in the mirror and see no solutions to your situation.
Some may say there are solutions out there. One could always get veneers, crowns, etc. I don't see that as a solution at all. The price, I can afford. I would without a doubt have dysmorphia after that procedure. every single case of veneers i've seen online (I must've looked through thousands), never look fully natural to me. Beyond that, they must be replaced every 10-20 years. So imagine every 10-20 years, you get a completely new smile that changes the way you look. I can't deal with that. Even beyond that is the shame and hatred I feel at this part of my body being destroyed and never able to return.
And I don't think my life will get any better. Just as example, I recently graduated from a prestigious university now making in the top 1% of money. I got extremely fit. I had relationships with attractive partners. I have good friends and family.
This one thing has caused me to experience no joy at all in my life. In my relationships I could never reveal this dirty secret and that caused me a ton of emotional strain. Most people in my circle have goals of travelling, parties, money, relationships, etc.
All I want back is this one thing that nothing will ever give me. All I think about is this. and I'm done. I'm tired of suffering insecurity, anger at everything. It's changed who I am, and I can't live like this anymore.
Sorry I know this was a long rant, I know that this may seem trivial to the things that others on this site are dealing with. But this is how I feel