how do i pass the time before i ctb?

[enjoy]

i will be ctb on either the first or last day of june. june 1st was my original date, but june 30th holds a certain significance to me. i want to do it sooner, but i know i can't because it's only january and i don't want to do it on some random day that lacks personal importance.

this brings me to my question: how do i pass the time before i ctb? i'm starting to get pretty bored.

any ideas?

 

[JustAnotherSuicider]

It's depends. Do you have some money to trow away before CTB or you are empty? If you have some money on you then you can go on some trip abroad. You can do things that you always wanted to do but you were too scared. Just do anything you want, it doesn't matter anyway If you are going to CTB in the end, right? I think life can get much better If you know that you will die soon and basically you don't have to worry about anything at all.

 

[HereToday]

Max out your credit card and go wild
Kinda joking, kinda not
Only do this if you're 100% sure you won't change your mind
My more serious suggestion is to get everything ticked off your bucket list

 

[MysticPerception]

If you're like me and have tossed the idea of doing certain amazing things before ctb in the trash then I'd just go about your average daily hobbies if you have any. I'm just gonna be reading a book or playing some videogame so something basic like that the day I do it. I don't intend to give special meaning to my day though since that's just how I like to do things.

 

[sleepy dog]

i will be ctb on either the first or last day of june. june 1st was my original date, but june 30th holds a certain significance to me. i want to do it sooner, but i know i can't because it's only january and i don't want to do it on some random day that lacks personal importance.

this brings me to my question: how do i pass the time before i ctb? i'm starting to get pretty bored.

any ideas?

I suggest not just allowing your mind to believe that it will work. Plan for failure. Have things in place to help you if your method fails. Many people just assumed they would die. Some committed crimes, or quit their job, or maxed out credit cards and spent all cash, or did other things. Some did all these.Then they did not die.

 

[Alec]

I think I'm gonna watch my favorite movie the day I ctb right before I drink SN, or maybe with 20 mins of the movie left will be when I'll drink SN so that I can go finish watching the movie and pass out right away or while the movie is still ending. And till that day comes I watch other movies and tv shows

 

[Rena rossy]

I suggest not just allowing your mind to believe that it will work. Plan for failure. Have things in place to help you if your method fails. Many people just assumed they would die. Some committed crimes, or quit their job, or maxed out credit cards and spent all cash, or did other things. Some did all these.Then they did not die.

I try not to think of failure, I know that there is a chance that it may not work but... It makes me feel really stressed and my head becomes a mess and I want to end up crying... I kniw I should have some back up plan... But I just can't think of one

 

[enjoy]

It's depends. Do you have some money to trow away before CTB or you are empty? If you have some money on you then you can go on some trip abroad. You can do things that you always wanted to do but you were too scared. Just do anything you want, it doesn't matter anyway If you are going to CTB in the end, right? I think life can get much better If you know that you will die soon and basically you don't have to worry about anything at all.

i've got a little bit of money left. i'm a college student, so i'm almost always broke as it is. as for my credit card... well, it's not real money. i'll get a bit more crazy as june grows closer. the highly-impulsive spender aspect of my bpd has entered the building...

Max out your credit card and go wild
Kinda joking, kinda not
Only do this if you're 100% sure you won't change your mind
My more serious suggestion is to get everything ticked off your bucket list

yeah, i'm probably going to wait to spend my money. i'm in school until may, so i've got around 4 months to figure out what i wanna buy.

If you're like me and have tossed the idea of doing certain amazing things before ctb in the trash then I'd just go about your average daily hobbies if you have any. I'm just gonna be reading a book or playing some videogame so something basic like that the day I do it. I don't intend to give special meaning to my day though since that's just how I like to do things.

keeping it simple is pretty nice, but it's starting to get tedious for me. i can only play guitar or write for so long until i get bored.

I suggest not just allowing your mind to believe that it will work. Plan for failure. Have things in place to help you if your method fails. Many people just assumed they would die. Some committed crimes, or quit their job, or maxed out credit cards and spent all cash, or did other things. Some did all these.Then they did not die.

don't worry, my plain is foolproof. i've done extensive research and i know there's no way i'm going to survive.

I think I'm gonna watch my favorite movie the day I ctb right before I drink SN, or maybe with 20 mins of the movie left will be when I'll drink SN so that I can go finish watching the movie and pass out right away or while the movie is still ending. And till that day comes I watch other movies and tv shows

sounds relaxing. what's your favorite movie? i'll give it a watch.

I try not to think of failure, I know that there is a chance that it may not work but... It makes me feel really stressed and my head becomes a mess and I want to end up crying... I kniw I should have some back up plan... But I just can't think of one

i wish i could help you better, but maybe you shouldn't do anything crazy/impulsive if you think there's any chance that you could fail. a lot of people who commented above you are gonna do relaxing things instead. maybe you should follow in their footsteps?

 

[Rena rossy]

i've got a little bit of money left. i'm a college student, so i'm almost always broke as it is. as for my credit card... well, it's not real money. i'll get a bit more crazy as june grows closer. the highly-impulsive spender aspect of my bpd has entered the building...



yeah, i'm probably going to wait to spend my money. i'm in school until may, so i've got around 4 months to figure out what i wanna buy.



keeping it simple is pretty nice, but it's starting to get tedious for me. i can only play guitar or write for so long until i get bored.



don't worry, my plain is foolproof. i've done extensive research and i know there's no way i'm going to survive.



sounds relaxing. what's your favorite movie? i'll give it a watch.



i wish i could help you better, but maybe you shouldn't do anything crazy/impulsive if you think there's any chance that you could fail. a lot of people who commented above you are gonna do relaxing things instead. maybe you should follow in their footsteps?

Thank you for worrying, it is okay. I have planned everything in detail it is just there is always a chance you may be foubd out before so... It scares me, that is why I prefer not to think in failure

 

[Alec]

i've got a little bit of money left. i'm a college student, so i'm almost always broke as it is. as for my credit card... well, it's not real money. i'll get a bit more crazy as june grows closer. the highly-impulsive spender aspect of my bpd has entered the building...



yeah, i'm probably going to wait to spend my money. i'm in school until may, so i've got around 4 months to figure out what i wanna buy.



keeping it simple is pretty nice, but it's starting to get tedious for me. i can only play guitar or write for so long until i get bored.



don't worry, my plain is foolproof. i've done extensive research and i know there's no way i'm going to survive.



sounds relaxing. what's your favorite movie? i'll give it a watch.



i wish i could help you better, but maybe you shouldn't do anything crazy/impulsive if you think there's any chance that you could fail. a lot of people who commented above you are gonna do relaxing things instead. maybe you should follow in their footsteps?

My favorite movie is Harry Potter, although I'm not sure which one of 8 movies I would choose, probably the last one or the third one, I prefer the books but I think it's gonna be more relaxing to just watch something while I pass out rather than read. Or maybe I'll watch an episode of my favorite TV show Supernatural, that show saved me many times in many ways.