How do I manage to CTB while having a minimal budget?

[Cuecumber]

My life has been doomed to an eternity of suffering and unhappiness the moment I was born, and I'm not even just talking about the "Ohh the world sucks" kind of suffering, something much worse regarding never going to have an independent life and being kept delusional and ignorant by all my close people (except for friends). I've been in a mental state that makes me be barely functional and unable to do the most basic shit without the brain quitting on me.

I must die to save myself, but...
- I have no money for an effective poison
- I have no means of illegally obtaining contraband
- I can't do anything like directly stabbing myself, but I can swallow deadly substances

I pray that someone will bless me with an escape, for neurotypical uselessnesses have cursed my life. I still feel as though I'm on my own body's life support and I need help immediately on ending it all.

 

[Worndown]

A new, good rope is $7 to $25 depending on quality. A cheap ticket for the bus.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be really dreadful what you go through, I find it so cruel how people suffer so much in this existence, I personally really just wish there's a straightforward way to permanently be free from this existence, it causes me so much pain how it's not that way. But anyway I wish you all the best, I hope you find the peace you search for.

 

[Cuecumber]

A new, good rope is $7 to $25 depending on quality. A cheap ticket for the bus.

I'll use that in a method combo I'll do. Maybe something like ingestion of 50-100 crushed cherry seeds, then quickly knife to the head or heart while my neck is in a noose.