justcallmeJ
<3
- Nov 9, 2023
- 401
I have tried to recover a lot but im accepting more and more that its pointless. Im stuck in life on so many ways its unbearable, even with the help im getting nothing changes. I see that life never has been meant for me. I will never fit in anywhere. Im tired, useless, and i want to give up. The problem is i keep having hopes that things suddenly might change. Combined with fear of what happens after death i think ctb will be impossible for me. I dont wanna spend the rest of my life rotting away and pray each night i die in my sleep. ctb would be the best option for me, and I still have SN, why cant i just take it and be done with everything?