c4di
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- Oct 9, 2025
- 42
im thinking of attempting partial tomorrow and im already feeling physically sick. last time i tried ph i couldn't go through with it fully and lifted my head the second i felt the rope close my throat, besides that i didn't manage to close my cartoids and just felt like my head was exploding so it didn't help and made me back out.
my SI was almost nonexistent until i got close to jumping once and kept looking down and replying the image of me falling and how I'd look on the ground in my head. i felt nauseous for days after that whenever i felt suicidal which is a lot. now every time i think of my life ending too hard i get really anxious, is there any way to bypass that?
my SI was almost nonexistent until i got close to jumping once and kept looking down and replying the image of me falling and how I'd look on the ground in my head. i felt nauseous for days after that whenever i felt suicidal which is a lot. now every time i think of my life ending too hard i get really anxious, is there any way to bypass that?
