How do I care

[gorillazlover]

How do I make myself care about anything anymore, I tried various ways but all failed: I though finding meaningful goal like getting to a school I wanted but failed that twice, tried to find a significant other but brokeup after like a half a year, tried to make list of stuff I want and need to do (trying to reward myself), I even tried to find smaller and quick goals like finishing school year regardless and be content regardless what happens, finding a at least one friend and start University and be on the road to being normal human being; then the fucking virus came and all those goals got erased entirely. Now I have no hope left, all that shit I have been told about ''it's going to be better'' crap was half truth as the truh is ''it might be better or it might be worse'' but nobody will tell a potentially suicidal person that now will they !? And fuckign now I can't find a point to life myself, and when I ask around others they either don't know or don't care either. My theory is that all people have something to keep them alive and wanting, something to always to hope on, and meeting a person like me who has non of that must be inconceivable because if they could they would end up like me; but that's probably wrong and I'm a fucking idiot or whatever.

 

[Huntfish34]

I'm sorry you are going through all of that,. But rest Assured you are not the only person in this situation. I would like to know the answer to your question as well.

I've got a job and a roof over my head... so I Try to be greatful but my anxiety, depression, resentments and what not have turned me into something I never thought I would be. Don't have Any Fckn faith, confidence, joy , passion anymore. I just really don't care at all,. Makes me wanna puke my guts out honestly,. I hate it.

Thoughts and prayers to you,. Try and take care of yourself if at all possible.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really do not know. Personally, I see no point to this life. I think people tend to care about things if they are motivated to do them. I can imagine it must be a hopeless feeling when you try and yet nothing makes you feel better. In my case there is no hope and I want nothing to do with life. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[timf]

Life is usually a tapestry woven with a thousand threads. Life can also be difficult and one can find some relief in cutting a thread or two here and there. However, the more threads that are cut, the more abstract and even hostile the world may begin to seem.

When others cut our threads, it can escalate the rate of change such that we can feel we are plummeting.

Most people take the connection and disconnection of the threads of their lives as a matter of course without giving it much thought.

If we come to a point where we only have a few threads left, we may not have the luxury of encountering new threads at every turn. We may have to work at making new connections with threads that we intentionally seek to establish.

This can be difficult because there can be effort and risk involved. It can be especially difficult for someone who has had more of an "automatic pilot" approach to life previously. Taking manual control of life can be difficult for those who have not had much experience.

Something like volunteer work can be useful. It can be a way to make connections and impart to life a sort of momentum (like jump starting a dead battery).

People who are brought to the edge of the abyss often find many of the threads of life torn away. Combat veterans, abuse victims, people with mental or physical health problems, refugees, ex-cons, and even those whose jobs expose them to the brutalities of life like cops and emergency room nurses also find they have to build as life on manual control.

Because others often do not understand the difficulties of this path, one may not find many people sympathetic to the difficulties. However, having ones eyes opened can help one appreciate things more deeply when new threads are woven that build an enjoyable life.

If you are at the beginning of the construction project that is your life, you may wish to use the opportunity to select materials of much higher quality than you would have otherwise have taken in reflexively.