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Szinuus

Szinuus

I see the bus...I can almost see it
Aug 19, 2022
211
I was doing research about N and one of google search results was "N from D megathread".
 
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ceus

ceus

<3
Nov 17, 2022
36
Same, I was researching N and got redirected to the side from a blog I was reading.
 
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Lammpz

Lammpz

You
Oct 16, 2022
27
I remember reading vague mentions of SaSu somewhere on Reddit around 2020 so I eventually started lurking once in a while.
 
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jodes2

jodes2

Hello people ❤️
Aug 28, 2022
7,735
I think I found it while googling suicide methods. This was a number of years ago when it came up higher in search engines
 
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vultureilse

vultureilse

ready to go, just waiting for the right time!
Dec 31, 2022
144
saw it mentioned under a reddit post on i think suicide watch or some other mental health sub
 
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jessisme

Specialist
Dec 3, 2022
386
I was did a search for "suicide methods" or something like that online and came across an article that was written on the subject with a scathing review of the site. I Googled the name and here I am so I guess the article didn't scare everyone away and by mentioning the name of the website and the context may have driven people here instead.
 
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Sapphire

Sapphire

Student
Nov 22, 2022
185
I was searching suicide methods and one day, I came across an older article online that mentioned this site( not by name) and said that this forum tells people how to kill themselves. It didn't take me long to find it once I knew what to look for.
 
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randy

Student
Jan 6, 2023
155
stumbled on it googling around for info on N sources
 
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neoyokio

Member
Oct 16, 2022
36
I googled "suicide forum" and that was that, first on the list
 
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sincerelysad

sincerelysad

bpd . chronic pain . ptsd . pls be kind <3
Jan 4, 2023
158
I was doing research about N and one of google search results was "N from D megathread".
i was searching for a suicide forum and found an NYT article talking shit about sasu; they literally name dropped the forum LMFAO
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,743
It was years ago in my case, so it's hard to remember, but I believe that I was trying to search for information about suicide methods and then I came across a news article about this site, but it didn't mention the name of it. It was one of the ones about someone who died after being on here, just some pro life type nonsense, but soon enough I managed to find this site as I wanted to know about suicide methods. But sadly years later I'm still here as upon finding this site I learned about how difficult suicide unfortunately is.
 
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5417807

5417807

Dumb Dog
Jan 11, 2023
76
A member of a parenting group I was in was warning other members about this site and that it had guide on buying and hiding stuff via tor and vpns after their kid was found to have used this site and found ctb methods from here
 
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Kualk

Kualk

May we all find peace
Jan 10, 2023
43
Found it about 6 months ago while researching insulin overdose cases, finally decided to make and account after months of lurking.
 
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Fthis

Fthis

Student
Dec 8, 2020
192
I knew pro anorexia forums were a thing for anorexics to talk about their problems without censorship, and I wondered if the same concept existed for suicide, and after scrolling past the hotlines google threw at me, there was a website with a list of them and this was the only one that was straight forward and not on the dark web.
 
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deathissosad

deathissosad

I will find you in the afterlife my Nanes. -boov 😢
Nov 17, 2022
173
Stumbled across it by searching methods think i saw the term "sanctioned suicide" in an article and searched that or something. Ironically while i was in the ward 51/50'd 😅
 
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MelancholyMagic

MelancholyMagic

For my next trick, I will disappear
Dec 12, 2021
235
I was on the subreddit. Made an account right after the NYT piece because I was worried the site would be privated.
 
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GrizzlyGrapefruit

GrizzlyGrapefruit

Student
Jun 17, 2019
123
I was a part of the subreddit. I don't even remember finding that, but I had seen that it got banned on reddit some time ago, and then just searched the internet. Found the site very easily.
 
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Anon1337

Mage
Oct 1, 2018
557
I was a lurker on the subreddit in 2017. The forum appeared after it was banned, but I didn't sign up at first because there were only a few members and I didn't know if it was safe.
 
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je.suis.prêt

je.suis.prêt

Hjälp mig
Jul 9, 2022
107
Being in a dark place made me constantly think about suicide. I began looking for news articles about people similar to myself who had committed suicide, and after reading many stories, I came across a New York Post article where the site was named in the case of a young person who had died.
 
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spinningmyself

Member
Dec 31, 2022
50
I was did a search for "suicide methods" or something like that online and came across an article that was written on the subject with a scathing review of the site. I Googled the name and here I am so I guess the article didn't scare everyone away and by mentioning the name of the website and the context may have driven people here instead.
That is how I found this site as well. I am very thankful I did, like alot of other people here has said it has saved me. At least for a while it was.
 
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jessisme

Specialist
Dec 3, 2022
386
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
i was on a suicide forum not this one a pro life one i was censored within a day of using it so went online to find another one where i stumbled across a article written by vice about sasu
 
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theboy

theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,411
I read about this forum on a "social networking site" so I looked it up online.
 
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Pinkliquid12

Pinkliquid12

Member
Sep 10, 2022
37
Being in a dark place made me constantly think about suicide. I began looking for news articles about people similar to myself who had committed suicide, and after reading many stories, I came across a New York Post article where the site was named in the case of a young person who had died.
Same here! New York Post really did wonders for the community lol
 
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Rainy_days

Rainy_days

Experienced
Dec 21, 2022
256
Was on the subreddit originally, don't remember how I found it. It's interesting how different that place felt. If I remember right it was almost all philosophical discussion of suicide with very little personal discussion.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,372
Like many other users- I was researching methods and came across the NYT article:

'Where the Despairing Log On, and Learn Ways to Die'

I thought- at last- I've been hoping to find somewhere like this the past 30 years! Idiots! Same goes for this new YouTube guy. Still- for what it's worth- I'm grateful to them. I likely would have ended up doing some very risky, very painful method otherwise.
 
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samishii

samishii

What's the point?
Dec 24, 2021
103
I was searching for resources about suicide, methods to be precise when I found an article (probably from vice, but mot sure) which was talking about this forum in a bad sense.

I find it funny that they wrote the article to sort of keep people away and they just ended up helping people eho were lost like me😂.
They were so dumb
This was the article
 
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lionetta12

Just a random person
Aug 5, 2022
1,278
I was doing research about N and one of google search results was "N from D megathread".
Googled method and did research on CO and found some thread here eventually.
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,603
Rsearchng a specfc methd -- a SaSu pst frum pst cme up as 1 of th/ rsults
 
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Tiberius85

Tiberius85

Member
Aug 21, 2022
77
Was in a depressive phase. Woke up in the middle of the night with the urge to find out how to hang myself. Googled "how to hang myself" and stumbled on a post on this forum that handed out instructions.

I went to sleep afterwards. But stayed around here in the forum, having found solace, in ruminating and reflecting on life, the worth and value of living and the human condition.
 
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