How close are you to CTB

[Painless_end]

How close are you to CTB

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I have never wanted to live and I am very tired of living. Death is all I want, there is nothing here for me in this world. Dying is the only thing that makes sense for me, I want to be free from all meaningless suffering. However I am trapped in this world as it is so difficult to leave, for me there is the lack of peaceful and reliable way to exit and the fear of failure. So therefore I do not see myself as being close to ctb. More than anything I wish that it was easier to exit, I wish to fall asleep and never wake again.

 

[BigGimpin]

If I had a way out I would take it right NOW. I am disabled and dont really have a lot of options, trying to get N through D but I cant get the PPeH to download.

I dont want to live another sleepless night

 

[fatefulstillness]

I am sure of my decision to end my life but I am waiting some time for now. There are things I need to be here for.

 

[Crazy4u]

I selected the first option. I have everything ready (method, note, details). I am desperately looking for care options for my dog

 

[fullofregrets]

Ready to go the coming month but I'm not sure how I'll handle extreme anxiety. Already having panic attacks a month prior.

 

[CommitSudoku]

Would be so happy to go right now. No method finalized but the beauty with hanging is it can always be an option. Just hard to go through with. I wish I was dead today so I wouldn't just be perpetuating misery and wasting time. I will hold out hope for the weekend for trying anything and let myself binge and drink at least tonight and tomorrow.

 

[lifehurtsuk]

I'm ready to go yesterday

 

[Goh12345]

I don't really know. I wish it was closer. But I still have to find a way to buy sn. I have plan how to do it. Then I don't know how long I will wait

 

[fieldofash]

anyone else reach the point where its almost the baseline for their thoughts?
its what i keep coming back to after every distraction.
seems close.

 

[whatevs]

5 out of 10. Not thrilled about killing myself, not thrilled at staying either.

 

[fay13]

tomorrow i CTB

 

[lifehurtsuk]

anyone else reach the point where its almost the baseline for their thoughts?
its what i keep coming back to after every distraction.
seems close.

Yep. It's the only thought that brings me some comfort now a days

 

[fay13]

Yep. It's the only thought that brings me some comfort now a days

i ALMOST had a deadly mental breakdown today , but thankfully thinking about killing myself tomorrow and coming back to this forum made me calm down

 

[Al_stargate]

Method is almost set, need to get everything in order like finances, and I'll likely be set in April sometime. Feel the time coming and it's giving me anxiety.

 

[fay13]

Method is almost set, need to get everything in order like finances, and I'll likely be set in April sometime. Feel the time coming and it's giving me anxiety.

can you please tell me what is your method ?

 

[Al_stargate]

can you please tell me what is your method ?

N

 

[fay13]

N

i wish you the best of you luck

 

[Hercules]

Very close. I already have everything that I need. I have worked out all the details and have a plan in place. The only thing stopping me is anxiety when I try to set a concrete date.

 

[Al_stargate]

i wish you the best of you luck

Thank you. I wish you well as well. Sorry for your suffering.

 

[fay13]

Very close. I already have everything that I need. I have worked out all the details and have a plan in place. The only thing stopping me is anxiety when I try to set a concrete date.

this was my problem for the past 10 months , but now i am very determined , tomorrow i CTB hopefully

 

[sharky]

Very close. I always have a tiny bit of hope but nowadays I only have bad days and I have the feeling that I can't take it anymore.

 

[EndofEternity]

Incredibly close. I just need to wait until I have the money to order SN, and then I plan on going soon after it gets here

 

[lifehurtsuk]

this was my problem for the past 10 months , but now i am very determined , tomorrow i CTB hopefully

How did you find it? I hope you find a reason to live

 

[*Justanotherone*]

CTB comes in vawes to me...
Sometimes water can be peaceful and suddenly big wave is taking me under the water. Sometimes there are many smaller vawes....
No rules here accept one - staying
in water is only your decision....

 

[Daniel905420]

Very close. I always have a tiny bit of hope but nowadays I only have bad days and I have the feeling that I can't take it anymore.

Exactly how i feel

 

[NormaJeane]

I am ready to die any day now.

 

[Bedrock48]

Atm it's a case of trying to convince that I don't want to ctb, that's going terribly so far. I'm giving myself a week or two to decide where I go from here.

 

[ClownMe]

Im waiting for my dog to pass away before attempting, not sure what category that falls under.

 

[looking4escape]

If I could get my hands on N It'd be a matter of days for me
For now I'm trying to come up with my final plan
I'm so tired of my life and been this way since I was a teenager