Discussion How can i leave without permanently scarring my family?

[itssoover21]

Title. I'm just scared that when i do eventually ctb i would permanently ruin my family somehow and i really don't want that, they have no hand in what I'm facing and have worked alot for me to try and get over it but to no avail unfortunately, so i want to know your thoughts on how i could possibly ensure that they don't fall apart or become permanently scarred because of me. I love them dearly and have hung onto life this far because of them, but that determination is running out and I'm tired and sick and can't go on anymore. It really sucks that the world is the way it is.

 

[DivineSpark]

Yeah, I am not fond of inflicting pain upon my loved ones and friends. But I see no other way out.

 

[bankai]

Well, you won't permanently scar them. They'll get over it. Eventually. And that's the truth.

 

[DivineSpark]

Well, you won't permanently scar them. They'll get over it. Eventually. And that's the truth.

My mother is closest member to me in my family....

 

[Rynalia]

I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but how others react is something that you as an individual have no control over.

You could do your best to maybe try and reduce the impact. Perhaps try to find a way to give closure. Perhaps find a way to tie up post mortem loose ends.

But just as your feelings are your own, theirs are also their own. Despite everything that you may try, you can't really just stop a family member from feeling how they do/will.

One day they may forget you to the sands of time, or maybe they will be reminded of you by a memento until their mental faculties fade away, or maybe they might even think about you on their own death bed. But only time will tell and only they will know.

 

[limpimitation]

My sister ctb when she was 14. Even though I'm depressed and understand her motives, it still really hurts and there are days that all I can do is cry and miss her.

 

[SecretDissociation]

I'm not sure. I think that the most scarring thing that could happen to your family is them finding your body. That's what I think. But despite that, I think that it's invetiable anyway, and I had to make peace with it. I heard others do things like book a hotel, or ctb in a forest etc, and that is probably less scarring. But there is no surefire way, death and mourning hurts and that's just human nature.

 

[itssoover21]

Yeah, I am not fond of inflicting pain upon my loved ones and friends. But I see no other way out.

It really sucks doesn't it
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I'm not sure. I think that the most scarring thing that could happen to your family is them finding your body. That's what I think. But despite that, I think that it's invetiable anyway, and I had to make peace with it. I heard others do things like book a hotel, or ctb in a forest etc, and that is probably less scarring. But there is no surefire way, death and mourning hurts and that's just human nature.

I've been trying to find a way to make it atleast seem natural-ish but that's not going too well