Help How can I get money for the things I need to ctb and for an hotel or airbnb to do it there?

[HopefulSleep]

My plans on how to ctb are either nitrogen or an overdose on protonitazene+bromazolam, but I don't know how I can get money for that.

Hotels and especially airbnbs aren't cheap either but doing it at home where my family is is dumb cause they could find me.

I am 18 and have no graduation for the information.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I'd guess you'd have to find a job and save up.

What makes you want to die at such a young age?

 

[Torch]

Please don't ctb in an airbnb, hotel isn't best either. Do it late at night, on a weekend, or when you have the house to yourself for a few hours.

 

[uniqueusername39]

uh. work. obviously. if you're not old enough to work then you probably should wait this out a bit more. maybe it'll pass. who knows.

 

[leloyon]

If you plan to do it ASAP you could just get a loan or get a credit card perhaps, not like you'd have to worry about debt.

 

[HopefulSleep]

I'd guess you'd have to find a job and save up.

I am not good at anything and have no graduation, which job could I still get.

What makes you want to die at such a young age?

Many loved ones died when I was a child, I feel lonely now and not secure but what made me decide to really ctb is realizing childhood sexual abuse, it hurts me very weirdly.
I don't think there is any hope in having a normal life after realizing the last thing.
And also therapy doesn't work, most therapists I talked to seemed weird and cause I am autistic it is hard to help me mentally anyway.
For the autism it is not curable and everyone makes fun of me for behaving differently, it hurts much.

Please don't ctb in an airbnb, hotel isn't best either. Do it late at night, on a weekend, or when you have the house to yourself for a few hours.

Why shouldn't I use a hotel or airbnb exactly?
I never have my families apartment for myself, I already tried to ctb but my family found me and now they are paranoid.

uh. work. obviously. if you're not old enough to work then you probably should wait this out a bit more. maybe it'll pass. who knows.

Can I work without graduation easily?

If you plan to do it ASAP you could just get a loan or get a credit card perhaps, not like you'd have to worry about debt.

I don't know how that works, could I even do this without a job?
And how much money can I get from that?
How much time will I have to ctb until I get the consequences?

 

[uniqueusername39]

is it not possible for you to continue your studies just until you graduate? because you'd have better chances then. otherwise you could work retail or service jobs, from where i live those don't require a diploma. prepare your resume and submit it to every employer you see on indeed.com or other job searching sites.

 

[HopefulSleep]

is it not possible for you to continue your studies just until you graduate? because you'd have better chances then. otherwise you could work retail or service jobs, from where i live those don't require a diploma. prepare your resume and submit it to every employer you see on indeed.com or other job searching sites.

This takes too long and I am tired from fucking studying just to ctb
I have an idea, could I attend to an formation?
I can get a bit of money from that or are there better ways?

 

[uniqueusername39]

This takes too long and I am tired from fucking studying just to ctb
I have an idea, could I attend to an formation?
I can get a bit of money from that or are there better ways?

i'm sorry, i don't know what a formation is.
other ways to earn money that i could think of include selling your phone/gadgets/whatever stuff you have in the house. from what ive heard even a bunch of rocks could sell in Facebook marketplace. maybe some old dolls, stuffed toys, musical instruments...
you could offer to babysit for your neighbor or mow their lawn for them. if nothing else you can sell your service.

 

[Gonnerr]

I don't know which country you are from but there are some companies or organisyhat hire people

I am not good at anything and have no graduation, which job could I still get.

Many loved ones died when I was a child, I feel lonely now and not secure but what made me decide to really ctb is realizing childhood sexual abuse, it hurts me very weirdly.
I don't think there is any hope in having a normal life after realizing the last thing.
And also therapy doesn't work, most therapists I talked to seemed weird and cause I am autistic it is hard to help me mentally anyway.
For the autism it is not curable and everyone makes fun of me for behaving differently, it hurts much.

Why shouldn't I use a hotel or airbnb exactly?
I never have my families apartment for myself, I already tried to ctb but my family found me and now they are paranoid.

Can I work without graduation easily?

I don't know how that works, could I even do this without a job?
And how much money can I get from that?
How much time will I have to ctb until I get the consequences?

Usually, first credit card , you get 500 limit , that's what i got when i was young and was not working and in school.

 

[scarecrowbubu]

Best way is just do some easy labour for your neighborhood like cutting grass, washing cars etc, or might just look for a job as already suggested, dish cleaner, waiter are some easy jobs to get. Wish you the best of luck.

 

[HopefulSleep]

i'm sorry, i don't know what a formation is.

I don't know if I used the correct term, I meant those places where ypu study for your future job but still get money from them.

other ways to earn money that i could think of include selling your phone/gadgets/whatever stuff you have in the house

I need my phone and my family would be suspicious if I would sell my pc.

Usually, first credit card , you get 500 limit , that's what i got when i was young and was not working and in school.

What will the consequences of taking a credit be?