How can a mother be unable to love her own child?

[lawlietsph]

it takes a certain type of evil to bring a child/children into this world and to subsequently not care or love them, a certain type of evil that is unfortunately common among our society. Having children is looked at more as a fun thing to do or a quota to fill rather than something that should actually be logically thought through, and the biproduct of this haste and overall boredom with life is a living breathing soul that lesser beings will choose to mistreat or abandon. nobody actually wants to think about if their partner is healthy for the relationship in the long term or if they're responsible enough to raise a child or even if they themselves can, they just want to have a child so they can "show" others and themselves that they're doing something with their lives. Essentially its sacrifice with less steps. My mother has told me she wouldnt care if i died before, my father has told me im someone that "needs to be abused" and the rest of my family is more of the same, people who dont give a fuck and are too absolutely terrified to drop their own image that they all end up festering narcissism in themselves and the people around them, any semblance of intelligence or cognitive thought becomes null because why would you want to be truly happy when you could be the worst person in the world? all a ploy to plead the victim. I too wonder what it would be like to be hugged by a parent that actually loved me, to actually look at the people who raised me with love instead of contempt or indifference, and why the universe has made their lives into ones where im somebody that cant be ignored but instead has to be tortured. I really struggle to understand how someone could willingly bring a living breathing human into this world and then not love them, even if you realised that early on why would you not give the child away? What a faulty race we've evolved to be

This made me cry a little bit because I agree so so so so much with everything you say. It is deeply sad and horrible, how we have to face decades of suffering just because they were bored or wanted to show the world how they 'love each other'. Of course it was all a lie. Our whole entire family hated each other, my parents are even divorced now. It wasn't worth it at all.

 

[S like suicide]

What's it like when they care about you ending your life?
My mother doesn't care about it. I've told her when I've tried to hang myself, and her answer was "And? What should I do about it?"

Oh my God...something very similar happened to me.
The reality is that parents sometimes can be very cruel.
Prople are lucky when they are born in a very loving family....i wasn't,and now it is slightly....SLIGHTLY better but for more than 10 years they not only caused me trauma since a was in the belly but also let me live in total hell when I started to feel bad.
The pain they gave me is undescrivable....for real i can't find the right words for how painful it was and still is,I used to feel a huge cold void in my heart.
Unfortunately you can run away from them but you can't cancel them,we can't change parents,if so I would have already done it.
I feel you so much....at least "be comforted" by the fact that you are not alone,I understand you