no celebration, usually people i know in real life dont ask and dont really care, so i have never celebrated one, even if it happens i wldnt like it, i dont like to be the center of attention in such a way
During one of my last therapy talks we came up with the topic of a birthday party. The therapist then told me to tell how I felt on my birthdays.
I thought for a while and couldn't give her an answer. I can't remember a single birthday. They certainly took place, but I no longer know anything about it, I suppressed it
Well not much I don't think birthdays are special anyway I hate them cause it makes me even more depressed how I almost naively expect it to a great day for once but it never is. My mom is the only one who cares enough to celebrate it, she usually takes me out to eat which is good enough for me as long as she doesn't get the waiter's to sing happy birthday to me ugh. Every birthday for the past 4 years I've wished for only one thing and that is to just die. I wish I could kill myself on my birthday though I won't cause of my mom, but I'm going to wish for it again in 3 days.
Reactions:
ImsooDone1N, Weeping Garbage Can and RaphtaliaTwoAnimals
I have been alone on my birthday almost every time since I was 14. That's 25 years. I was born before Christmas when people have other plans. Same for NYE.
usually pretty good, i make it a week long thing. sometimes a friend will stop by (given current circumstances, someone just hung out w/ me at the bottom of my porch after presenting me w/ a nice gift), and i get a bunch of messages. i think someone is handmaking me a present and sent it out the other day so i'm really excited about it. i see my family and we have a dinner at home and i have to assure them they don't have to get me anything (i'm really hard to shop for anyway because i don't want for much) at my old job we'd spend lunch celebrating and they'd order a cake the birthday person would request. i just started a new one so idk how they'll do things or if i'll find out next year lol
My only irl friends are family friends I've known since I was a kid, so it's having them come over and my birthday wish is that I will die soon. Mine's coming up (October) and I'm wondering whether it will be a lockdown birthday. Won't make a difference either way.
This site uses cookies to help personalise content, tailor your experience and to keep you logged in if you register.
By continuing to use this site, you are consenting to our use of cookies.