How are you today?

[Hope:-)]

How are you today? :-) I'm having a bit of a scaredy (a word??) day but I refuse to give into it. I think this is one of those things where you just have to decide to be strong. How are you guys?

 

[Blackhole999]

Bastante medicado estable con animos trabajando

 

[whywere]

Howdy!
Work is going good and lots of sugary treats, so outstanding.

You are a strong and awesome soul and I send you lots of smiles, and bright blue sunny skies,

Have a wonderful day.

Walter

 

[madebrief]

Strong in doing what?

Just urh at home doing nothing lying down all the time. What to do I don't know. Can't do this forever. How long is forever though?

 

[ojinzo]

I'm numb, honestly. I'm doing my best to push fear out of my body. Been reading a lot of Carlos Castaneda lately so I'm strong when the time comes. Saturday evening is the time on my bus ticket... I lived my entire life in fear, I don't want to enter death with it. Also, I guess I should use this time to thank you @Hope:-) . Many of your posts, especially the ones where you sought advice, were very helpful for me as sn is my method too. I think you are a good human and I'm sorry our paths crossed in such a hopeless place. I guess I'm solemn today. Accepting of my approaching fate.

 

[Angi]

Thank you for asking!

Feeling triggered, badly. I would like to die. More precisely, I would like to either not wake up tomorrow, or to wake up in a better state, please.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I'm drinking. Keep getting adrenaline dumps whenever I think about normal people having sex and shit, sometimes it sticks around for hours, and I don't sleep. Not last night, though, got my sleep in then. I have this technique that's helping with not suffering emotionally for hours at a time, and it works, but this relatively new stress/adrenaline thing can approach fast, and I might need to get back to the gym to deal with it.

 

[Hope:-)]

I'm numb, honestly. I'm doing my best to push fear out of my body. Been reading a lot of Carlos Castaneda lately so I'm strong when the time comes. Saturday evening is the time on my bus ticket... I lived my entire life in fear, I don't want to enter death with it. Also, I guess I should use this time to thank you @Hope:-) . Many of your posts, especially the ones where you sought advice, were very helpful for me as sn is my method too. I think you are a good human and I'm sorry our paths crossed in such a hopeless place. I guess I'm solemn today. Accepting of my approaching fate.

That's very sweet of you. Yes, this is a sad place to meet. I'm just going to spend these two weeks trying to make the best of everything. I too have always been scared of everything and don't want to be too fearful for death. I was having a scared kind of day and now it has taken on a solemn kind of feel. I just have to be brave. Wishing you all the luck in the world xxxx

Strong in doing what?

Just urh at home doing nothing lying down all the time. What to do I don't know. Can't do this forever. How long is forever though?

Sorry I meant that I have to be strong in my conviction to ctb and not let fear get in the way x

 

[Mofreeko]

Still want to kill myself. How are you?

 

[ManicPanic2018]

Not bad thanks. I'm procrastinating and putting off writing my goodbye letters as hard as I can, so my plan is to go have a nap, relax for a bit and blitz through them in the dead of night with an obscene amount of drugs.

I did paint my nails just now though, I wanna look nice when I die xD

 

[Misery99]

Still unhappy. I've been wondering today about how I could survive if people close to me suddenly pass away. That's one of my biggest fears. I can't survive alone in this world. I'm not strong enough mentally or physically.

 

[madebrief]

Sorry I meant that I have to be strong in my conviction to ctb and not let fear get in the way x

Ah yes, there is no shame if fear does get in the way.

The decision is hard. We only know what is right for ourselves and not let other people think otherwise.

 

[Cerulea]

I'm hurting today. I have to see my ex tomorrow, I received my SN weeks earlier than I thought I would, and I'm having a hard time completing mundane tasks. I don't want to do laundry ever again. But I truly don't know when I plan to leave so I have to keep my routines in place. My head feels like a hurricane. I'm not the worst I've ever been but I do feel quite distracted today. There's a little chill in the air and this is usually my favorite time of year, just having a hard time enjoying anything. I kind of feel like living dead some days.

Thank you for asking. Scaredy days are hard to get through. Sometimes they're hard to figure out. Sending you fortitude and strength to get through this day safely.

 

[Lost Magic]

Well, I took a valium before walking down to the chemist for my Prozac prescription. Just trying to get out the door was a nightmare because I fear the outside as I don't go outside much. I nipped into a shop next door to the chemist for some food and supplies then hopped on a bus back home. Then a wonderful person (not) paid a complement to how fat I was getting since the last time she saw me. Yeah, I am depressed and comfort eat, Sherlock. lol, anyway thanks for asking. Hope you all have a good day.

 

[emgrl]

Well, I took a valium before walking down to the chemist for my Prozac prescription. Just trying to get out the door was a nightmare because I fear the outside as I don't go outside much. I nipped into a shop next door to the chemist for some food and supplies then hopped on a bus back home. Then a wonderful person (not) paid a complement to how fat I was getting since the last time she so me. Yeah, I am depressed and comfort eat, Sherlock. lol, anyway thanks for asking. Hope you all have a good day.

I have to take klonopin, and still haven't been able to leave my house. Good for you for getting out, I know that's not what you want to read, but that's something I consider huge.

People can be so rude, don't listen to anyone else. We're all here for you, you're not alone ♡

 

[hoberyn]

Weird. I've been feeling not good for years but all of this just been worse over the past months. Today especially i'm at a breaking point but for some reason my brain is just numb, it's like i can't feel anxiety but in a way just wait for it all to end if that makes sense ig

 

[Chronicillness]

Made another "biggest mistake of my life" 3 months ago and the ramifications of that mistake have yet to be fully realized. I'm the worst I have ever been.

When I was a more frequent poster on this forum several months ago I thought that my life could not get any worse, and therefore I thought my suffering had more or less stabilized. Well, jokes on me, it's twice as bad now, and I can't bear to even come to this place anymore because I feel like I am living out the worst nightmare out of anyone else here. While that is probably untrue, I still feel like I can't be a part of any community anymore because of how embarrassed I am of myself and my body. I feel like a complete freak.

The pain is so extreme. I feel like I am sitting through the highest max setting on the electric chair 24/7.

I wish to die in my sleep tonight

 

[FuneralCry]

Very tired of everything as usual. I could never not be tired of existing and no amount of sleep could ever bring me relief from the tiredness that I feel. Simply just being conscious makes the thought of non existence sound incredibly appealing. It would certainly be ideal to just fall asleep forever and be forgotten about. Peace could never exist as long as I am trapped in this existence.

 

[brokensea]

It's amazing when you feel you can't despair anymore or have reached the bottom of pain and find even more. I feel like it's hard to even stay awake anymore. Feels worse than it's ever been lately. Just a clawing emptiness ripping out my chest. Like falling falling into a void with no bottom. I've reached the limits of pain tolerance long ago.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Floating in a void

 

[Hurt]

Too tired. No motivation to do anything. I want to stop existing.

 

[SunshineAndSuicide]

My head was quiet today, I had a much needed break from the constant rambling. Today was an okay day.

 

[LittleJem]

Food on psych ward terrible: constipated. TMI probably. Still homeless. Feel tortured without weed. Kind of hopeless

 

[emgrl]

Food on psych ward terrible: constipated. TMI probably. Still homeless. Feel tortured without weed. Kind of hopeless

So sorry you're going through that. Tell them you want something for your stomach, the least they can do.

I wish I could share all my weed with you. It would definitely help your belly.

I hope you get out soon! At least you have your phone and us, can never be alone that way ♡

 

[Idontmatter]

Sitting at work tired. Ready to go home and go to sleep

 

[MidnightDream]

I'm okay. Quite overwhelmed. Trying to look after myself. Hot chocolate is currently making me feel safer. Thanks for asking @Hope:-) , hope you're good

 

[AliceTheGoon]

Frustrated. I took 10mg diazepam yesterday and it didn't calm me at all, just put me to sleep.

 

[Hello_Goodbye_2022]

Hurting a lot. Questioning everything and feeling very alone and confused.

 

[emgrl]

Hurting a lot. Questioning everything and feeling very alone and confused.

^^^This ^^^

 

[Hope:-)]

Slight Adjunct: If anyone who's going in the next few weeks, (I am attempting an attempt (ha) in 2 weeks time,) would like to chat let me know xx