Discussion How are you guys doing today? I love you

[terribleson15]

Let me know I'm always here to listen ((:

 

[Iaminimmensepain_1]

i was in a terrible state yesterday like the worst hell of my life but today i gave an exam and im relatively calmer

 

[swankysoup]

Terrible, trying to give up and accept death is terrible for me physically as well as mentally, i feel so exhausted.

 

[nool]

Feeling pretty meh right in this moment. Not happy but not swimming in my usual dispair and self-loathing. Just straight up neutral.

How about you?

 

[terribleson15]

Feeling pretty meh right in this moment. Not happy but not swimming in my usual dispair and self-loathing. Just straight up neutral.

How about you?

Relatable to you, trying to do what I can but pretty meh yeah

 

[Iaminimmensepain_1]

My depression is became so bad I lost everything and I'm becoming a burden to other people because I'm not able to end it.

Im really sorry and I completely understand how you're feeling. If it helps you can tell us what's going on but only if you want

Relatable to you, trying to do what I can but pretty meh yeah

I think the meh is what happens when you're gone through some pretty ugly shit and now you're healing

 

[Still here]

I feel terrible right now and I don't know what to do......... Wish I weren't here......!!!!!

 

[kopebaldy]

Exhausted, friend, I'm exhausted. Just trying to make it to tomorrow.

 

[whywere]

Chronic pain is TERRIBLE right now, never a dull moment, I guess.

So much darn work, pain and at least I got all the folks here, as this aspect makes all the difference in the world.

Walter

 

[unluckysadness]

I'm desperated, tired because of valium and sleeping pills, isolated as always. I don't expect anything from life now. Only a miracle could save me.

 

[whywere]

I'm desperated, tired because of valium and sleeping pills, isolated as always. I don't expect anything from life now. Only a miracle could save me.

You are to/for me such a kind and thoughtful friend always.

We may be a part in distance, BUT NEVER EVER in love and kindness of heart, as we are family.

You are a shing star to so many.

Walter

 

[FuneralCry]

For me existing is always so dreadful and terrible and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake no matter what, in this existence so cruel non-existence is just all I see as desirable and is the only peace for me.

As long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never suffer again, I find it the most torturous, futile burden to exist with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I suffer simply from existing, I'll just always prefer to not exist and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's always so torturous to be trapped in this existence so cruelly denied the option to just peacefully cease existing so I can finally be at peace from this existence that to me will always just be waiting to die.

 

[MissAbyss]

Very restless, a lot of physical pain today and constant suicidal thoughts.

How about you?

 

[MyShadow]

I spent the entire day yesterday laying on my bed, watching bad movies and posting on SanSu because I am in this state of limbo. Today looks about the same and I hate it. I am digging myself into a deeper hole every single day.

I know that I'm done. Exhausted. My depression, PTSD, anxiety and a deep feeling of loneliness have me paralyzed. I have done nothing toward either fixing or ending my life. I am leaning heavily toward the latter because I know things are only getting worse. Death is the only thing that I look forward to.

 

[Klophy]

Too scared to go through with it. Too scared to actually commit to anything.

Stuck in a constant loop of panic and escapism.

I hate who I am... So pretty good today, lol.

 

[littleearthquakes]

In a lot of pain and terrified about my rapidly failing health and feel alone and misunderstood by everyone in my life.

 

[submarinedownsea]

Feeling empty, like theres a void inside me, no feelings, emotions, almost completily apathic because i still sad and guilty about my divorce and last crise i had in my moms house. In short words, bad. But how ur doing? :)

 

[nuva]

6/10
I feel tired, but I finally ordered a rope and ate a tasty yogurt.
what about you?

 

[RinneOfAragon]

feel rock bottom, tired and trapped. Hugs to you all!

 

[verminnnn]

lately nights have been really really hard, but the last few days i haven't cried at night at all. during the day, absolutely! but not at night.

i began a new medication and one of the side effects is that i bleed a lot.

Spoiler: spoiler for child death

i frequently become convinced that i'm pregnant, and so the bleeding is making me afraid i'm having a miscarriage. i know i'm mentally not the full ticket. if i had a child it would almost certainly inherit my mental illnesses from me. that being said, i would like a physical manifestation of love, and i think i'd be a good parent. i have so many things to teach a child. the bleeding makes me very, very sad

 

[kitkat9234]

Wishing I was dead…. I have pretty much everything I need to CTB yet too much of a pussy to actually go through with it. I need to just say fuck it but I just can't bring myself to do it. So here I am trapped.

 

[Upon a hanging Body]

Im absolutely horrible

 

[DontCryForChimp]

Feeling hopeless. Holding my head down and dragging my feet is the only way I know to move forward.

 

[LunarEcho]

My thinking has become more negative, and I worry that even a minor injury or illness will never heal.

 

[spookyjar]

Not doing well, CTB has been on my mind a lot more recently. My mental health has been deteriorating a lot and I'm currently going through a breakup. Tough times.

 

[leaftomb]

Let me know I'm always here to listen ((:

I'm not doing the best but not the worst either I guess? I've actually been socializing a bit this week, and I thought that would help but I still feel as hopeless as I always did once I get home and I have to sit with my thoughts. I start classes next week and I still have a little hope its will take my mind out of all of this for a bit. We'll see. Feeling pretty meh overall