134340
Student
- Aug 23, 2019
- 164
My psychiatrist cut off my meds. I am so, so unwell (I'm not that well on meds to begin with) and there's just really no point in even going back on them. My life is never going to be what I want it to be. I can't work, I won't ever be able to go back to school, I don't have friends, I don't leave the house except for appointments. I'm tormented by my mind constantly.
My sister (20) wants me to try going to the hospital again. I've been admitted 11 times since February 2013. There's only one I can go to and I've had bad (but not quite traumatic) experiences the past 2 times. She's my best friend and I think I owe it to her to try, I guess. I don't know. I wish things could be different too, I just don't see it happening. I felt good for about a year and a half, 2021-2022, and that's the only time I've ever felt like living in my whole life. I don't know why I can't get back to that. I can't live like this anymore and it's never going to get better but I can't die either. I'm just so tired
My sister (20) wants me to try going to the hospital again. I've been admitted 11 times since February 2013. There's only one I can go to and I've had bad (but not quite traumatic) experiences the past 2 times. She's my best friend and I think I owe it to her to try, I guess. I don't know. I wish things could be different too, I just don't see it happening. I felt good for about a year and a half, 2021-2022, and that's the only time I've ever felt like living in my whole life. I don't know why I can't get back to that. I can't live like this anymore and it's never going to get better but I can't die either. I'm just so tired
