hopefully this will be goodbye

[gummycentipede]

I hope you went out easy. Hoping the best for your family too

 

[90starve]

i failed - im certain that i had passed out, but my rope slipped from my anchor point and i woke up on the floor.

what i remember enduring was not painful - i just felt some light pressure in the front of my forehead, but it was not uncomfortable - i have a bruised neck from this attempt, but no lasting pain.

thankyou everyone for your well wishes <3 this is a learning experience - now i know for next time to secure my rope to the anchor point better.

 

[Vizzy]

i failed - im certain that i had passed out, but my rope slipped from my anchor point and i woke up on the floor.

what i remember enduring was not painful - i just felt some light pressure in the front of my forehead, but it was not uncomfortable - i have a bruised neck from this attempt, but no lasting pain.

thankyou everyone for your well wishes <3 this is a learning experience - now i know for next time to secure my rope to the anchor point better.

Sorry it failed, take your time, you can try again in the future

Partial hanging can be challenging to pull off, hope you are okay now

Make sure you stop your suicide notes reaching your loved ones!

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It must be so horrible to fail with an attempt. Exiting is such a difficult task.

Welcome back and I hope you are fine. It will work next time when it is your true wish to CTB. I wish you all the best!

 

[90starve]

Sorry it failed, take your time, you can try again in the future

Partial hanging can be challenging to pull off, hope you are okay now

Make sure you stop your suicide notes reaching your loved ones!

it's definitely a tricky method - although i think i am pretty sure that this is the method i want, so i will persist with my research!

It must be so horrible to fail with an attempt. Exiting is such a difficult task.

Welcome back and I hope you are fine. It will work next time when it is your true wish to CTB. I wish you all the best!

thankyou for your kind words <3 i think that when it's my time to go i will pass peacefully and with no issues - i will just be patient.

 

[-TheSorrow-]

Sounds like the ket helped dull the pain imo, not very familiar with the drug myself, but I know for sure weed doesn't dull pain, at least for me.
Thankfully it wasn't a hospital you woke up in or surrounded by family calling the police.

Best wishes on your next attempt and may you find peace.

 

[peaches]

Sounds like the ket helped dull the pain imo, not very familiar with the drug myself, but I know for sure weed doesn't dull pain, at least for me.
Thankfully it wasn't a hospital you woke up in or surrounded by family calling the police.

Best wishes on your next attempt and may you find peace.

dad… i'm sorry… i don't really know what i'm supposed to say here. i have taken ketamine and weed to ease the pain… please take solace in the fact that i did not suffer. this has been a long time coming. i don't want you to blame yourself there's nothing anybody could done to stop me from doin this. i simply do not want to exist anymore. i am alone and the poeple around me just see me as an object. i can't do this anymore. ii really wish i could've said more here, but i am in a rush. i love you dad, you're the best and only thing in my life so please please don't blame yourself. i love you so much. jordon is in the next room and i don't know if he will hear me do this. i just want this all to be over. i will die tonight by partial hanging and i will not suffer.

see you on the other side, and please make sure you put "eli" on my gravestone. goodbye dad

I send you kindness and peace.

 

[loserr]

rest peacefully.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

hey youre still here (:

 

[90starve]

Sounds like the ket helped dull the pain imo, not very familiar with the drug myself, but I know for sure weed doesn't dull pain, at least for me.
Thankfully it wasn't a hospital you woke up in or surrounded by family calling the police.

Best wishes on your next attempt and may you find peace.

ket definitely helps to numb minor pain.

hey youre still here (:

hi :)