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90starve

90starve

i don’t know who i am
May 8, 2023
578
dad… i'm sorry… i don't really know what i'm supposed to say here. i have taken ketamine and weed to ease the pain… please take solace in the fact that i did not suffer. this has been a long time coming. i don't want you to blame yourself there's nothing anybody could done to stop me from doin this. i simply do not want to exist anymore. i am alone and the poeple around me just see me as an object. i can't do this anymore. ii really wish i could've said more here, but i am in a rush. i love you dad, you're the best and only thing in my life so please please don't blame yourself. i love you so much. jordon is in the next room and i don't know if he will hear me do this. i just want this all to be over. i will die tonight by partial hanging and i will not suffer.

see you on the other side, and please make sure you put "eli" on my gravestone. goodbye dad
 
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tommynyc

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May 19, 2023
10
Be at peace
 
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BornToFail

BornToFail

Experienced
Sep 9, 2022
285
Please be at peace
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,758
May we find wellness
 
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HAKMKS

Praying things get better
May 29, 2023
147
I hope you find peace
 
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leavingsoon99

I'm at peace... Finally.
Mar 16, 2023
721
May you finally rest and be at peace.
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
1,321
I hope you escape peacefully and find peace.
 
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TheHuman

TheHuman

Member
May 31, 2023
98
Good luck man hope you can find peace
 
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apenasumbrasileiro

apenasumbrasileiro

@devoidvessel
Apr 16, 2023
10
I hope that he found his peace. I
 
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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,234
peace
 
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inmyhead

Student
May 21, 2023
168
May you find peace
 
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wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,823
Be at peace
 
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charlotte_

Arcanist
Mar 12, 2023
436
I'm sorry your life has led you to this point. But even so, it isn't your fault. I hope you will be free from pain and be at peace
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,209
Rest in peace! Farewell!
 
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InSearchOfLess

InSearchOfLess

Alis volat propriis
Feb 22, 2023
42
Strength, Courage and Godspeed friend!
 
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Vizzy

DEAD
May 6, 2023
1,865
Hope you find peace
 
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flesh object

Bread
Feb 15, 2023
42
I wish you peace.
 
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heavyeyes

heavyeyes

Oct 9, 2022
1,716
God speed. I wish you peace 💙
 
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love_peep

Specialist
May 26, 2023
313
Rest and peace bro
 
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canaryblue

Member
Jun 3, 2023
32
Godspeed my friend and may you rest in peace!
 
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Letgo

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Apr 1, 2023
319
Wishing you peace and rest. You are being thought of.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,862
I hope that you find freedom from all the suffering.
 
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Dude

Rotten
Jun 1, 2023
10
I hope you find peace.
 
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hopeless87

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Mar 17, 2023
13
I hope you find some peace away from everything
 
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Solitudeseeker

Member
Jun 3, 2023
31
dad… i'm sorry… i don't really know what i'm supposed to say here. i have taken ketamine and weed to ease the pain… please take solace in the fact that i did not suffer. this has been a long time coming. i don't want you to blame yourself there's nothing anybody could done to stop me from doin this. i simply do not want to exist anymore. i am alone and the poeple around me just see me as an object. i can't do this anymore. ii really wish i could've said more here, but i am in a rush. i love you dad, you're the best and only thing in my life so please please don't blame yourself. i love you so much. jordon is in the next room and i don't know if he will hear me do this. i just want this all to be over. i will die tonight by partial hanging and i will not suffer.

see you on the other side, and please make sure you put "eli" on my gravestone. goodbye dad
rest well my dear <3 and may you be free from the cruel earth and regain your peace
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,804
Go well, sleep quietly, dream sweetly, weary distressed traveller.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
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Think he made it...Peace
 
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Pidgeons_Sparrows

Pidgeons_Sparrows

-flying rat
Apr 16, 2023
625
christ this is saddening to read, it sounds like you were quite close with your dad.. i hope he wont take this the wrong way :/
 
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MusicGuy

MusicGuy

We're just another statistic
May 28, 2023
118
Hope wherever you are now you have found peace
 
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forever dreaming

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May 17, 2023
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Rest in peace
 
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