Honestly I don't know why I'm even on this site

[BlockedintheUK]

Maybe my ego thinks I can help someone here and actually achieve something useful with my life and that's why I'm here

 

[Captive_Mind515]

Maybe my ego thinks I can help someone here and actually achieve something useful with my life and that's why I'm here

You're probably in the wrong section of the site for that tbh.

 

[Higurashi415]

There is a recovery section. People who come here don't necessarily WANT to get better, trying to help can/will be extremely frustrating for you and annoying for the others

 

[BlockedintheUK]

I switch between wanting to ctb and not wanting to so I dont think I really belong in any section

 

[RinneOfAragon]

help me off myself, please

 

[BlockedintheUK]

@Higurashi415 I'll try not to annoy anyone or annoy myself.

 

[cakedog]

Maybe my ego thinks I can help someone here and actually achieve something useful with my life and that's why I'm here

Sometimes i think i should've just remained a lurker

i don't have any valuable info or encyclopedic knowledge to help people with their methods
i feel like when i give them advice i'm just annoying them with the same platitudes they probably already heard a million times
and can't even make for interesting conversation because i have entry-level knowledge even in my own hobbies and interests

 

[Gabbi_Station]

Sometimes i think i should've just remained a lurker

i don't have any valuable info or encyclopedic knowledge to help people with their methods
i feel like when i give them advice i'm just annoying them with the same platitudes they probably already heard a million times
and can't even make for interesting conversation because i have entry-level knowledge even in my own hobbies and interests

Honestly I just use this site to vent… otherwise I think I would go mad lol

 

[TheLastGreySky]

Maybe my ego thinks I can help someone here and actually achieve something useful with my life and that's why I'm here

I think you're looking for a purpose. Respectfully sometimes I fear that suicide would make my life "officially" meaningless. As I have yet to achieve what I want to in life. I have reasons to be happy again, but I constantly come back to this low point. I don't know if you relate to what I'm saying, but I think we all try to make sense of our emotions and our lives and right now, I don't know if there's an acceptable answer for anyone on here to close the chapter of the pain of their life and choose to steer themselves towards recovery. And I think the greatest question for anyone to get better that they need to answer is... Why? And I'm sorry that I can't answer that for anyone else.
What is the motivation for someone who hates themselves to choose life?

And then, when I'm in the "odd" periods of life where I love myself, life treats me like shit and I'm like "fuck, I don't deserve this shit" so what is the motivation for someone who loves themselves to choose life?

 

[LigottiIsRight]

It's ok, as long as you focus in the ones that ask for help and leave the rest alone.

 

[AAE]

Maybe my ego thinks I can help someone here and actually achieve something useful with my life and that's why I'm here

There's no ego involved. You are here because it's the one place where you can vent your feelings without holding back, while not being judged the way most of society would. That's what I believe. And you achieved something simply by posting this. You started venting and we listen. I wish you the best!