hi im risa

[risanya]

hii i am risa.
I am still trying to push on but I have been looking into resources to ctb. ive been suicidal for 6-7 years and struggled with my identity with being trans and relationships with family and friends. I am not sure what methods I am looking into but sn seems like an attractive option but also too good to be true.
I am not acting on impulse but I have been looking into resources like ss for years now.
this is still a journey for me and whether i find peace soon or not i think it would be nice to learn more on ss.
i am very socially anxious and have no friends and practically nobody in my life. I am not good at anything and have no hope for the future, i have been wanting to stop existing since I was in high school. sorry if i am very awkward because i am typically very bad at reaching out especially on topics such as suicide. thank you

 

[F Sea]

Hi Risanya.
Sorry for the situation of suffering in which you are. You don't have to apologize, it hasn't been awkward.
If you want to talk, that's what we're here for. Very good luck with everything Risanya

 

[carac]

Hello risa. I think a lot of people here feel the same way, that we are useless and that we are nobody. Maybe you may find a sense of belonging and among a bunch of nobodies we can all be somebody. Good luck with what ever you choose, I don't know much about SN as I live in the UK and I believe it's incredibly hard to get hold of here.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be tiring having suffered like that, to me it's understandable just wishing for relief from it all. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Hello Risa! Welcome to the forum! I'm sorry you have to go through this. I hope SS will become also a home for you.