Hi i’m new here and i just wanted to talk about my experiences

[imaburdenx]

Since i was a kid i've always wanted to end my life and i know i will do it at some point. Life is meaningless and unfulfilling to me and it always has been. About 8 months ago, I attempted suicide. I hung myself using a sheet suspended from a closed door. I was caught before i died and was involuntarily hospitalized for 3 weeks. I suffered more in those weeks then i have in my entire life. Now, I still plan to commit by hanging in the future. The pain is not a concern to me, because when i attempted i actually passed out immediately and felt nothing. I'm unsure of a place i can go outside of my home where i will not be caught before i die. My first idea was the woods, and to use a tree. I don't think this will work well so i'm unsure and i'm kind of just stuck in this miserable life even though i'm ready to leave.

 

[Sulyya]

Sorry to hear about your pain, and the fallout from the attempt. What happened at the hospital, if I can ask?

 

[catastrophix]

Welcome to SaSu :] I'm so sorry to hear about your situation. I've been involuntarily admitted to hospitals a couple times, so I know it definitely isn't a fun process. Anyway, I hope you can find some support here.

 

[loneliestman]

Sorry to hear that you feel this way and sorry they locked up. Can I ask you though, what age are you?
You said "Life is meaningless and unfulfilling to me and it always has been"
Can you elaborate on why you believe or feel this?

 

[FuneralCry]

I very much understand your feelings towards life, at least to me existence could never be worth enduring and there is certainly nothing to be gained by existing here in this world. The existence of life certainly is something so incredibly useless, that just leads to more suffering all for the sake of it. But to me, it sounds absolutely horrific failing hanging and being trapped inside a hospital as a result. As humans we don't deserve to be punished for trying to die, existence certainly is so prison like and I hate how difficult it is to finally leave this hellish world. If suicide was easier I would be long gone at this point. But anyway, I wish you the best and I hope that you find the outcome that you are searching for.

 

[LookAway]

How are they banned already?

 

[Dot]

How are they banned already?

Bcse mods r ninjas

 

[LookAway]

Bcse mods r ninjas

 

[Looking]

Bcse mods r ninjas

No kidding!

What was the reason they were banned? They only made one post and it didn't look like it broke the guidelines to me.

 

[Dot]

No kidding!

What was the reason they were banned? They only made one post and it didn't look like it broke the guidelines to me.

Mods hve accss 2 info 2 cnfirm tht thy r nt eligble 2 b on th/ ste