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finnn

finnn

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i was getting better for a whille i was still suicidal but not as much but here i am again. this friday i have it planned to either down half a bottle of pills, hang myself or drown myself or shoot. idk, probably overdose. anyways wanted to share. i was trying to stay alive to reach my ugw, but i dont even care anymore.
 
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I'm so sorry to hear that :(
 
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doing something impulsively without planning and thinking it through can lead to failure, make sure you make the best decision for yourself, I'm so sorry you're going through this
 
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To me overdosing sounds like a risky and unreliable method especially if it's something OTC, it's generally not recommended if one wishes to succeed in ctb. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans, life really is so unnecessary cruel and it's very much understandable wishing to be permanently free from all suffering.
 
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hey i was in the middle of a breakdown while writing this, i didn't kms on friday hahah, but i still have my date planned! im not gonna do it impulsively, im sticking to the plan i've had for months instead of doing it early. sorry
doing something impulsively without planning and thinking it through can lead to failure, make sure you make the best decision for yourself, I'm so sorry you're going through this
thank you. i was having a mental breakdown btw, i'm going to plan this out instead of being impulsive! i'm keeping the plan i've had for a while now, not going to do it this week.
To me overdosing sounds like a risky and unreliable method especially if it's something OTC, it's generally not recommended if one wishes to succeed in ctb. But anyway I wish you the best with your plans, life really is so unnecessary cruel and it's very much understandable wishing to be permanently free from all suffering.
that's why i'm hoping to reach my ugw before i kms both for being skinny and because if im underweight, hopefully it's more likely to be successful since my immune system will be down. i don't have access to much, so hanging, drowning or od are my options. thank you though
I'm so sorry to hear that :(
it's alright, it's gotten better but i don't even know what to feel anymore. it's dumb really , tbh i was kinda overreacting but i still feel terrible
 
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