Hi how long suicidal?

[funtimes]

I just started feeling it extremely last few weeks cause of a trigger of cptsd in last year...been through it psych ward etc and tried everything...made things worse...bad anxiety symptoms, thoughts etc and can't do it, it's non-stop

 

[DivineSpark]

For last 8 years. Anxiety, anhedonia and other mental health problems. Recently, I feel like it has gotten worse, more intense, making me even more suicidal.

 

[funtimes]

8 years - sorry to hear

 

[ForeverCaHa]

15 years give or take. Depression and anxiety have been a constant since my early teens, and more recently losing my partner to suicide has done me in.

 

[TheHolySword]

Too long. Probably around 15 years. I stupidly kept trying but I don't have any hope left anymore. This is my last year.

 

[dingokettle3531]

Since I was 8 or 9 I believe so ~14 years now.

 

[Arrival03]

At least five, could be longer, but I have bad memory.

 

[FrozenOcean]

8 years now… but it crossed my mind often over the last 25 years

 

[Forveleth]

25 years. Maybe not actively suicidal the whole time but if someone would have put a gun to my head, I would not have fought them.

 

[pauly369]

Around 18 years now.
It never goes away, even during the times when things are going relatively well on the outside.
Its always lingering beneath the surface to varying degrees.

For last 8 years. Anxiety, anhedonia and other mental health problems. Recently, I feel like it has gotten worse, more intense, making me even more suicidal.

Sorry youve got Anhedonia, Ive got it too.
It makes you feel like a living corpse.

 

[GuppyBoyo]

since i was 9, so 9 years as of rn ?

 

[WatchmeBurn]

Started around 10 years old and I'm now 24, almost 25. So close to 15 years. Intensity has varied over time.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I'm sorry you have to suffer so much, for me wanting to not exist is all I know, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence.

 

[divinemistress36]

21 years but especially the past 5 years