silentsinger

silentsinger

Experienced
Mar 1, 2019
261
I want to go. I don't mean anything to myself and I am fairly sure I am no good to anybody. I feel trapped in a constant cycle of wanting to go but too afraid of certain scenarios that may occur.
Part of me wonders whether this means that I am not yet ready, or is it just that I need to bite the bullet? It would be better than this same cycle every day.
I don't want to be a nuisance but I feel trapped.
 
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ShadowOfTheDay

Hungry Ghost
Feb 14, 2019
331
We're in the same boat. I can almost think of nothing but suicide, and yet always run into the same mental blocks: what if I fail again, and end up in a worse state than I'm in? Or how devistated would my family be? I'm just stuck at this impasse. I wish someone would make up my mind for me.
 
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Roadkill

Experienced
Dec 25, 2018
247
We're in the same boat. I can almost think of nothing but suicide, and yet always run into the same mental blocks: what if I fail again, and end up in a worse state than I'm in? Or how devistated would my family be? I'm just stuck at this impasse. I wish someone would make up my mind for me.
this is my problem also... the fear of failure is the only thing stopping me.. I really want to die but I am very afraid of ending up in a worse state than I am already in
 
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Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

Enlightened
Mar 5, 2019
1,030
I know this feeling well, I relate well to the line used in Old Man River;
"Tired of living, scared of dying"

This is a horrible place to be.
For what it's worth if you feel like you're going in circles, a teacher of mine once said that this can be a chance to truly examine the detail of your problem and make bigger circles, which may lead you to some kind of truth.

I hope you find what you are seeking friend.
DBD
 
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silentsinger

silentsinger

Experienced
Mar 1, 2019
261
I know this feeling well, I relate well to the line used in Old Man River;
"Tired of living, scared of dying"

This is a horrible place to be.
For what it's worth if you feel like you're going in circles, a teacher of mine once said that this can be a chance to truly examine the detail of your problem and make bigger circles, which may lead you to some kind of truth.

I hope you find what you are seeking friend.
DBD
Your teacher sounds pretty cool. I also really like the quote form old man river. It seems to be very relatable for many people.
Thank you.
this is my problem also... the fear of failure is the only thing stopping me.. I really want to die but I am very afraid of ending up in a worse state than I am already in
I know this feeling well, I relate well to the line used in Old Man River;
"Tired of living, scared of dying"

This is a horrible place to be.
For what it's worth if you feel like you're going in circles, a teacher of mine once said that this can be a chance to truly examine the detail of your problem and make bigger circles, which may lead you to some kind of truth.

I hope you find what you are seeking friend.
DBD
I know this feeling well, I relate well to the line used in Old Man River;
"Tired of living, scared of dying"

This is a horrible place to be.
For what it's worth if you feel like you're going in circles, a teacher of mine once said that this can be a chance to truly examine the detail of your problem and make bigger circles, which may lead you to some kind of truth.

I hope you find what you are seeking friend.
DBD
this is my problem also... the fear of failure is the only thing stopping me.. I really want to die but I am very afraid of ending up in a worse state than I am already in
this is my problem also... the fear of failure is the only thing stopping me.. I really want to die but I am very afraid of ending up in a worse state than I am already in
It is one of the scariest aspects of it, isn't it?
 
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lupin333

Member
Jan 15, 2019
19
I feel like with me, I'm in a constant state of limbo. I want to die and move on, but the fear of not succeeding, whats next, and much more is prolonging the state I'm in.
 
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silentsinger

silentsinger

Experienced
Mar 1, 2019
261
I feel like with me, I'm in a constant state of limbo. I want to die and move on, but the fear of not succeeding, whats next, and much more is prolonging the state I'm in.
I feel exactly the same
 

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