I know I essentially had an unsuccessful attempt a few days ago (I didn't follow through, only drank a little bit of SN before deciding I was going to "try" for other people *sigh*) but I think an opioid OD would be such a peaceful way to go . N is insanely difficult to get my hands on but I have a some fent laced oxy, regular oxy and some other shit and really considering ODing . I don't know why I'm even posting this, just to get my thoughts out I guess or if anyone has any experience w/opioid ODs and how u felt ?
Not from me. But from testimonies of people you find from oding h, they either felt massive euphoria before they blaked out while being In their own world totally cut off from reality and reality senses or pass out without.
And wake up in a pool of vomit without even being councious of puking nor trashing around. After they were saved with narcan.
That's also my way to go by the way.
And wake up in a pool of vomit without even being councious of puking nor trashing around. After they were saved with narcan.
That's also my way to go by the way.
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The euphoria is what's really drawing me to the method . Imagine being indescribably happy right before you die . It sounds almost too good to be true . I know it's pretty hard to do though given there's no one set dose and it differs for everyone and yeah getting found and shot w/Narcan :/
I don't know about you but I wanted a taste of my method ( IV fent ) by doing some heroin. It made me feel so sick it was actually uncomfortable, even painful. Totally unglamorous. I propose that in some cases like everyday junkies, it feels good and then you die, because you are acclimated to the chemicals.
Omg wow that's a different view from what I typically hear . Question, do you do opiates at all in your every day life ? Or you just went straight to heroin ? Genuinely curious .
I was an IV drug user 11-13 years ago and have been sober ever since, save the occasional surgery and pain pill
Also I have had 2 overdoses a decade ago where I felt like I was dying and it was the most amazing feeling I knew it would have been very peaceful
That's what I wanna hear tbh haha . I hope I can get some heroin soon . Never had it before but I have high hopes . Though being labeled as a drug addict when I OD isn't the most pleasant thing to be named but I'll be dead so
Right? I really hope my parents/family/employer will understand I wasn't a junkie behind their back or anything. I'm not sure if it's possible to test the level of heroin in my body to prove that was my only attempt but it wouldn't matter anyway
I doubt they'll do all that for us and tbh I feel like we'll just be named as junkies or whatever other derogatory names they have . I want to explicitly state in my note that this was one of the most peaceful and pleasant ways to go but again lol, we'll be dead so does it *really* matter (no) but still !
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I dont even care anymore since the few persons who really knew me know that i can't be a junkie, know my firm stance against using drugs and relying on them.
For everyone else, they can literally go fuck themselves for running solely their tongues and having an intellectualy deficient brain and talking without knowing shit.
I dont even care anymore since the few persons who really knew me know that i can't be a junkie, know my firm stance against using drugs and relying on them.
For everyone else, they can literally go fuck themselves for running solely their tongues and having an intellectualy deficient brain and talking without knowing shit.
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Narcan only works for about 30 minutes then the drug kicks back in again. Worse case would be that you'd get Narcan every 30/40 minutes, not uncommon to give it multiple times.
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I wish I could get my hands on some heroin. I live in a nice town but there are tons if people selling it right under your nose. A family friend died about two months ago when he bought what he thought was heroin but it was fentanyl and he snorted it and died on the toilet. And he lived in a house with his parents and girlfriend so that shows you how fast that took to kill him. I wish I knew who dealt him that.
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I tried heroin once by snorting and it was the best day in my life...really happy and careless...that would be a great way to die
I had a "friend" who could have got me some, I've bought coke from this friend so I trusted him . But I guess his plugs kept falling through (no biggie, I totally understand that) but he hasn't given me my money back and it's been like a month and a half and I planned on using it in my method so :/ . It's hard to find around where I live .
I tried heroin in Morocco and it was okay but not amazing. I do want to try it again to see if it was just poor quality, or if it doesn't do much for me.
Re not wanting people to think you're a junkie...I'm gonna make a CTB video for the police, explaining I've wanted to CTB for over 20 years, and how many myths there are around suicide. You could make a video for your family to see afterwards, saying you chose this as it was the least painful method and you'd not tried it before..
Re not wanting people to think you're a junkie...I'm gonna make a CTB video for the police, explaining I've wanted to CTB for over 20 years, and how many myths there are around suicide. You could make a video for your family to see afterwards, saying you chose this as it was the least painful method and you'd not tried it before..
See that's smart but I dunno if I would wanna go through that much effort just to prove a bunch of people wrong y'know ? But at least the people that knew you would have clarity and closure which I think is important . Do keep everyone updated !
Oh I accepted that fact as soon as he stopped talking to me lol . My fault, that ones on me . Won't happen again . Bummer though
