Back in summer 2024 I would have never even thought about it that in January 2026 I'll still be here.
I think this a fear that many of us on sasu have its the fear that we'll never be able to ctb and will be trapped in his horrible existence.
I think I have no other choice I have to force myself to ctb unfortunately because I really hoped I could get some calmness before my suicide but no not for me , what a terrible life…..