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bloop714

bloop714

Member
Mar 26, 2023
37
Hi, so I was thinking of writing a suicide note. I live alone for time being, so no one can find it before ctb which is pretty much a relief. But thing is that I am kind of a lone person, suffering from extreme schizophrenia, and my parents know about it. Even though I have been planning to ctb for one year and it is not an instant decision, I had to tell my parents about my condition, around the end of March this year because my counselor called them up, and they took me to the doctor, but I have no wish to continue my life, for time being I am just making up an act. My parents are the only ones who care about me, and they know a bit about it even if I died they would probably assume that reason was my condition. But I don't want to blame them for it and even though there are some people in my life due to which I got to decision of ctb too, I don't want to bring them up. What do I do? should I still write a note or not?
 
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bobblong

Student
Mar 15, 2023
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You should write a note , or your parents will blame themselves for the rest of their lives .
 
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Sluggish_Slump

Specialist
Mar 29, 2023
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It wouldn't hurt to write a letter explaining your decision
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I think that it's a personal decision deciding whether to write a note or not, but I think that it could be beneficial writing one as it could mean that those left behind are less likely to be left with as many unanswered questions and it could give them some closure.
 
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Henryk

Henryk

Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry
Apr 22, 2022
90
I've tried to write letters countless times but never been able to express myself the way I'd like to, so I decided to record an audio for each person that I consider special to me and I intend to send it a little before CTB
 
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Sad4Evr

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Apr 8, 2023
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This is a fantastic idea, especially if you care about the ones youll leave behind.
 

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