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mentalhealthfighter

mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
362
I'm seriously considering CTB by Train. I wanted to go for euthanasia but i'll have to wait so long and follow all kinds of therapies. I can't get SN or N because my mom will catch me. So all i have left is train. Does someone have any thoughts for me?
 
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houseofleaves

houseofleaves

Due to a bug i can leave Likes only
Jan 14, 2022
580
1. Don't jump in front of train, you'll just mess everything up.
2. Don't do it in a subway.
3. What is your SN situation? Why can't you buy it?
 
mentalhealthfighter

mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
362
1. Don't jump in front of train, you'll just mess everything up.
2. Don't do it in a subway.
3. What is your SN situation? Why can't you buy it?
I cant buy it because my mom prevents me from doing so. i live with my mother, im 21 years old.
 
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Hope:-)

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2022
1,120
That's not a peaceful method. I know the feeling though- I was thinking of taking sn on it's own because I just wanted to get it out the way and not wait around trying to score meds, but that is foolishness. How old are you? If you're young...and I know you don't want to hear this...but give yourself a little more time. Wishing you the best X
 
befree

befree

Time to do more enjoyable things _____Goodbye_____
Mar 22, 2022
2,585
You are 21. So you can rent a post office box at the post office or a mail service such as MBE. You can have the SN delivered there. If you need a source, send me a PM. I would not recommend to post where you live.
 
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[HNO]

Experienced
Aug 21, 2022
283
it's possible to decapitate yourself with a tram just dont act suspicious before it aproaches to you to avoid premature halt and chauffeur meltdown. subj had explained in the first chapter of the master and margarite, check a gap between a tram corpus and railway if it's wide enough for head you kno
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,791
I could never have the courage for the train method, to me it sounds so horrible. You are lucky to at least have the option of euthanasia, but I understand being desperate to leave and being unable to wait. I hope that in whatever happens you find relief from your suffering. I wish you the best.
 
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mentalhealthfighter

mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
362
Which country? (not an idle question)
Netherlands
You are 21. So you can rent a post office box at the post office or a mail service such as MBE. You can have the SN delivered there. If you need a source, send me a PM. I would not recommend to post where you live.
this could actually work. I think I'm gonna wait to do this
 
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Szinuus

Szinuus

I see the bus...I can almost see it
Aug 19, 2022
211
SN could be delivered to the parcel locker, then CTB in some abandoned place with your phone that'll be tracked by police, who'll find your dead body.
 
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Euthanza

Euthanza

Self Righteous Suicide
Jun 9, 2022
1,446
It's catch the bus, not catch the train, however just don't throw yourself under the bus, duh. I wish you get on the ride.
 
Un-

Un-

I'm a failure. An absolute waste. A LOSEr.
Apr 6, 2021
652
I'm not saying you should do it, but what I am saying is that I'm tired of people acting like anything that isn't SN will fuck you up guaranteed. Yes, there's a chance that you'll survive. But if you're hit by a metal barrage a while before it slows down at a station, you won't live. You will not survive. And depending on what's hit first, you'll die nearly instantly. There's probably more information some place on the forum, but it pisses me off.

It's like the whole gun thing (I'm sorry for derailing your thread). If you know what you're doing and you're pointing the barrel in the correct direction, you WILL NOT survive. Most people that do survive don't know what the fuck they're doing. They just copycat what they see broadcasted on television.

Not everyone has the privilege of SN, or N. Not everyone has the resources and time to make hanging work. Sigh. I hope you find peace.
 
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befree

befree

Time to do more enjoyable things _____Goodbye_____
Mar 22, 2022
2,585
Netherlands

this could actually work. I think I'm gonna wait to do this
SN shipped to NL, no problem !

Another idea to make it more anonymous and safer because of your mother would be to rent an address at MBE Germany or Belgium near the border and pick it up there.

Belgium:
NL:

Germany:
 
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Willthishelp?

Specialist
Jan 18, 2023
304
SN shipped to NL, no problem !

Another idea to make it more anonymous and safer because of your mother would be to rent an address at MBE Germany or Belgium near the border and pick it up there.

Belgium:
NL:

Germany:
Hi Befree ik wil je graag even spreken maar kan geen contact met je opnemen. Zou jij mij kunnen contacten? Dank 🙏🏻
 

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