Help me!

[Big3f78]

I'm tired. I no longer have the strength to do anything. Today I was arguing with my parents and they told me I am a "monster" because I didn't live like a "normal teenager". They often tell me that I am the family's misfortune. They tell the reality, I am a disgrace even if I am not guilty in everything that has happened to me. I spent 22 years in hell for many reasons that I don't write because my hands would shake. Many on this forum use specific language to indicate some drugs or methods to perform..but I'm so stupid and depressed that I don't want to go and find out. I wanted to ask you .. I have a great fear of pain but at the same time I can't take it anymore, now I'm crazy and there is no way back. My parents will be sad but I can't live hell for another tens of years, I hope they understand but even if they won't for sure. Is there a painless method to kill me and get away from this scum of the world? I'm looking for a method, a drug or anything..the important thing is that it is painless. P.S. Unfortunately I can't get a weapon, otherwise I would have done it for some time

 

[HereToday]

Don't kill yourself because of what other people say or think, and especially don't do it on impulse. Suicide should be a well thought out decision and the last resort once you've exhausted all options, when you're in constant suffering and there's no way for your life to improve. Just my opinion. If you're set on it, you can easily find the information and drugs you seek on this website

 

[Big3f78]

Don't kill yourself because of what other people say or think, and especially don't do it on impulse. Suicide should be a well thought out decision and the last resort once you've exhausted all options, when you're in constant suffering and there's no way for your life to improve. Just my opinion. If you're set on it, you can easily find the information and drugs you seek on this website

It is not a choice due to the anger of the moment. I was forced after years and years of suffering and now I can't take it anymore, it doesn't make sense to live like this. Where can I find the information or drugs to end this hell?

 

[Jean4]

It is not a choice due to the anger of the moment. I was forced after years and years of suffering and now I can't take it anymore, it doesn't make sense to live like this. Where can I find the information or drugs to end this hell?

Nobody here can tell you what to do, but the best place to start is the resource section.

We are always here if you want to talk and vent. We understand.

 

[HereToday]

It is not a choice due to the anger of the moment. I was forced after years and years of suffering and now I can't take it anymore, it doesn't make sense to live like this. Where can I find the information or drugs to end this hell?

I'd start here https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/resource-compilation.3/
Good luck whatever you choose