Help me find S.I.D im looking here for it.

[sunshineizgone]

January of 2020 I had a motorcycle accident why couldn't God just finish the job why does he put me on this Earth to not enjoy what was supposed to be my Last supper I wasn't hungry for pain_pain_pain all I feel pain Everyday Suffering I can't take it anymore It's like he has a magnifying glass and I'm the ant he picked but all he did was Burn off my legs my antennas believe me All I do is suffer and suffer and suffer I hate complaining but how does one expect to live a life I can't work like I used to. I am physically Is unable to do things that I miss doing At this point S.I.D is my choice.

 

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Is S.I.D self - immolation "something"? I'm not familiar with that acronym.

 

[sunshineizgone]

S I D It's the time for the season
U N E Of loving you
I M
C A
I N
D D
E

 

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S I D It's the time for the season
U N E Of loving you
I M
C A
I N
D D
E

??????????????? What the heck does "suicide in demand" mean?