Hello

[Pengu]

I am going to stab a pillow and jump off the building. This is the thought that I have been having repetitively for an hour now. I feel like I am going to die soon. I am going to die soon.

 

[macrocosm]

Is this the first time you've felt this way?

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that the building is high enough, failing a jumping ctb sounds so horrific to me. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[stillmirenai]

Think about it. Would you really like to die? Or is it that you have some emotional pain left over from all these years? Try distracting yourself with music, art, or something else, and if you are having these thoughts often, maybe get it checked out.

 

[SilentSadness]

Hello @Pengu. If you do jump, make sure that the building is tall enough and that no one will be around to stop you. I hope your situation improves soon so you don't have to use such a brutal and frightening method.

 

[Mortalist]

I am going to stab a pillow and jump off the building. This is the thought that I have been having repetitively for an hour now. I feel like I am going to die soon. I am going to die soon.

Do you know why you started feeling that way? Did something happen?

 

[Pengu]

Is this the first time you've felt this way?

Is this the first time you've felt this way?

I have been diagnosed with ocd and mdd for 2 years now..... I am on medications still I have these types of thoughts every single day. They tell me that I am worthless that there is no point of living and other things. It's really hard to live with these thoughts. One time I got so angry that I started stabbing my pillow and recently I have been having thoughts of jumping off a building, I live on the 7th floor so I think it's enough to kill me.... idc about pain..... it's like I am going insane with each day passing. I don't wanna live.... I have tried to fight this for 2 years and I just feel like I am losing control over myself.

 

[macrocosm]

I have been diagnosed with ocd and mdd for 2 years now..... I am on medications still I have these types of thoughts every single day. They tell me that I am worthless that there is no point of living and other things. It's really hard to live with these thoughts. One time I got so angry that I started stabbing my pillow and recently I have been having thoughts of jumping off a building, I live on the 7th floor so I think it's enough to kill me.... idc about pain..... it's like I am going insane with each day passing. I don't wanna live.... I have tried to fight this for 2 years and I just feel like I am losing control over myself.

7 floors might not kill you. What meds did you try? Sertraline helped reduce suicidal thoughts in my case. I know some people can be treatment resistant though. I found ketamine treatment very helpful too.

I've dealt with it my whole life. 5 years of it were a complete dark hell, same thing: felt like I was losing my mind uncontrollably, but treatment helped. Suicide is still planned but at least I'm not in hell everyday anymore.

What else did you try?

 

[Pengu]

Think about it. Would you really like to die? Or is it that you have some emotional pain left over from all these years? Try distracting yourself with music, art, or something else, and if you are having these thoughts often, maybe get it checked

7 floors might not kill you. What meds did you try? Sertraline helped reduce suicidal thoughts in my case. I know some people can be treatment resistant though. I found ketamine treatment very helpful too.

I've dealt with it my whole life. 5 years of it were a complete dark hell, same thing: felt like I was losing my mind uncontrollably, but treatment helped. Suicide is still planned but at least I'm not in hell everyday anymore.

What else did you try?

I was on setraline but now I am taking propranolol and paroxetine
I am also going for cognitive behavioral therapy and electroconvulsive therapy