Hello I’m an old member to say this is it I’ve reached journeys end

[Miss clefable]

Hello I'm finally going to ctb today later tonight under a blossom tree.Im a trans girl I'm 27 from the Uk Southampton.my life has just been endless chaos and torture from knowing I was transgender at the age of four to having no memory of myself until ten years old I've been emotionally abused by my alcoholic mother to an over bearing grandfather who cares more about his money than my recent assault to blackmailing me into a college course that had me almost murdered and didn't want to do. Ended up homeless at 23 almost died again from hypothermia outside a police station then I was raped and drugged.i recently pushed my gf away because I don't want her to feel bad.my most recent incident I was attacked with a knife at the boat yard I live at and the police have not even arrested the guy so yeah I've finally snapped. To all the lovely people I've met on here I love you all well except a couple but yeah my method is a massive overdose of nefopam codeine pregablin clonazepem and Xanax and alcohol I have tons so I'm gonna take my doll because she feels like my only in person friend sit under a pink blossom tree and hopefully just fall asleep listening to music and talk to you guys

 

[fisil]

I asked myself where you were. I don't know what to say now...

 

[LongTimeComing]

That sounds absolutely blissful! I wish you luck and I'm sending lots of love your way <3

 

[Miss clefable]

I asked myself where you were. I don't know what to say now...

My phone banned me I'm sorry hugs

 

[fisil]

I forget to mention that in my opinion this method is very bad.

 

[Miss clefable]

I forget to mention that in my opinion this method is very bad.

It's not I died briefly on nefopam just on 1gram stopped my heart I have 10 now

 

[RainAndSadness]

Good luck. I wish you peace and love. What's the exact dosage of these drugs?

 

[FrankieMay]

Im taking my teddy too xx

 

[Miss clefable]

Good luck. I wish you peace and love. What's the exact dosage of these drugs?

10 grams of nefopam 3 grams of codeine just a lot really enough for to kill me 3 times over and I'm sorry too

 

[Raggas]

I understand, hope you're sure that you're ready and that you can have peace.

 

[AtomicNewt]

Sorry your life has thrown so much rubbish at you. You sound like a beautiful person who has been let down by all the people supposed to help. Sadly it's often the case that the kindest souls suffer the most. Your choice of where sounds beautiful by the way good luck and love and hope you find what you need x

 

[Circles]

I'm so sorry it's come to this dear. I know mere words don't help but I hope whatever happens the otherside will treat you more kindly and accept you for the beauty you are . Wish you a swift and peaceful journey. Hugs.

 

[agreement]

Godspeed and peace to you

 

[SinisterKid]

May you find the peace in death that you could not find in life. Safe journey my friend, whatever the destination.

 

[LaBrava]

Best wishes to you

 

[LastFlowers]

Farewell fellow sufferer of this cruel world.
So sorry for what you've been put through.
I hope you have found peace in this decision, as much as can be had given the circumstances.

 

[Halo13]

Good luck and safe travels. Hugs

 

[LogicalConclusion]

I'm so sorry for what you've been through and I wish you peace friend <3

 

[Circles]

Any music you're listening to you'd like to share dear? You don't have to respond if you want btw.

 

[Letmego. Please]

So sorry to see you again in this post, you have my greatest respect, what you have been through, even lately is horrendous & sickening, so as much as i don't like it i respect your decision.

Wishing you peace wherever you find it & if all else fails I'm only down the road if you ever want a chat xx

 

[Faraway1990]

We've never met before but I wish you peace on whatever path you take :)

 

[Miss clefable]

Any music you're listening to you'd like to share dear? You don't have to respond if you want btw.

 

[Help_Me]

I remember you since my first day here, Miss Clef ! Sorry to hear you are suffering. I hope everything will be fine for you. Safe travels and may you find an eternal peace.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Wow Miss Clef, I don't know what to say. I knew you from pretty early on here. Well not knew per se, but always saw you around. I wish you the very best in whatever happens. I wish it didn't even come to this, but I understand. Much love and peace.

 

[Conflicted Cat]

I'm sorry for your experience in this shitty cruel world... Safe travels, and I hope you find peace, finally.

 

[KnightOfEnceladus]

Make sure to take an antiemetic if you're doing it this way. Your guts will throw all that up otherwise. I'm so sorry it's come to this for you...

 

[Miss clefable]

Make sure to take an antiemetic if you're doing it this way. Your guts will throw all that up otherwise. I'm so sorry it's come to this for you...

Hugs I will

 

[blanketyblk]

I'm so sorry to hear about your troubles clefable! truly, you have had a rotten life with just bad luck after bad luck.. if there is a god and reincaination is something that does happen, that i wish you get that chance.. i truly do!!

Many many hugs!

 

[KnightOfEnceladus]

Good...I'm also a transwoman, and unfortunately never ever had the chance to transition and don't even crossdress (because it would not work for me; I look like a cross between Ikari Gendou and Citan Uzuki, 5'10" and 165lb with a bathtub baritone...). Like you I've known since the age of four, though at least haven't been raped or had a murder attempt as blatant as yours yet.

Are you sure you can go somewhere you won't be discovered? As poetic as it is to die under a cherry tree, it sounds like you'd be found and "rescued," especially if you did it during the day. It would be better to rent a hotel room or go somewhere secluded if at all possible if you're really intending to carry through with this.

Whatever happens, good luck. I wish you release from your suffering, a peaceful death of this mismatched body, and no further suffering or reincarnation...

 

[Miss clefable]

Good...I'm also a transwoman, and unfortunately never ever had the chance to transition and don't even crossdress (because it would not work for me; I look like a cross between Ikari Gendou and Citan Uzuki, 5'10" and 165lb with a bathtub baritone...). Like you I've known since the age of four, though at least haven't been raped or had a murder attempt as blatant as yours yet.

Are you sure you can go somewhere you won't be discovered? As poetic as it is to die under a cherry tree, it sounds like you'd be found and "rescued," especially if you did it during the day. It would be better to rent a hotel room or go somewhere secluded if at all possible if you're really intending to carry through with this.

Whatever happens, good luck. I wish you release from your suffering, a peaceful death of this mismatched body, and no further suffering or reincarnation...

I'm 6'0 slender I'm doing this early hours hugs it's a hard experience it's just this boatyard I live at hates me it's okay though they will soon be happy